Answered question w/o hesitation or brain fog!

[Blueberry]

Today my psych doctor asked me the dreaded "But why do you do xyz?" I was able to give him the answer right away without going into shutdown and either not being able to answer at all or really struggling to answer.

This is huge    

[Armee]

 

[NarcKiddo]

This is indeed huge. Well done, Blueberry. I sometimes find such questions from my T very tiresome, but her questions are never framed in a way that makes me think she might not approve of my doing whatever it is she is asking about. It is genuine curiosity, or her way of getting me to think about the situation from another angle. Even so they can cause a shutdown, so it is really good progress when we are able to answer a "why" question freely and honestly. 

[Kizzie]

Yay, that IS great BB 

[Blueberry]

Thank you all for your comments and cheers - Armee, NK and Kizzie    

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Further progress - I notice that this is the fourth thread of mine on this current page of Successes, Progress? which shows me how much I'm managing to see and find success and progress in among the falling back and struggling. 

Despite this maddening stuff with psych doc see https://www.cptsd.org/forum/index.php?topic=16856.0  I'm still managing a day-to-day. I did get up very late yesterday, but I did get up. I have been doing basic self-care like eating and drinking tea or water, taking my meds, brushing my hair (not a given for me in this state), keeping going with some tidying (current stuff as opposed to backlogged stuff), eating at least some healthy stuff - even picking real herbs and wild herbs aka weeds to add to my meals. On Wed I still had a little piece of meat in the fridge which the farm people had given me on Sat at the market. I knew I had to cook it Wed or it would go off. Cooking is difficult because mostly triggering, but I tossed it into the frying pan and cooked it. Ate it the next day. Not too long ago I wouldn't have managed to cook it, it would have gone to waste. I would have felt awful about wasting it, especially good organic farm meat. Wed late evening till now I feel really good about it instead  

[NarcKiddo]

Fantastic. It is really good that you are seeing and finding success and noting it. That's not always very easy when we are bogged down with everything else.