Miscellaneous ramblings of NarcKiddo

[Bach]

 

This is all a literal nightmare.  I'm proud of you for coping with it and doing your best to advocate for yourself. 

[Moondance]

Hi NC - so glad for the no cancer confirmation. The wait to hear that is difficult for sure.

Good for you for handling the physical part of your exam - that sounds unbearable to me.

  for repeat prescription.  Doctors (not all) can be such a pain about that.

 

 

[Blueberry]

 

[HannahOne]

This sounds so challenging NK. But you're putting in the time and work to care for yourself and that's something to cheer for 

SO GLAD to hear no cancer!

And that you can get the inhaler you need. Air is essential! 

[TheBigBlue]

So glad it's not the c-word!
But sound way too triggering. Proud of you!

[dollyvee]

Hurrah no cancer  but sorry you had to go through someone else's hoops when you knew what the likely outcome was going to be anyways. It's kind of like back being a child with an NPD parent with no say in how your world actually is and what if going on.

[NarcKiddo]

Thank you all for your care and support. 

It's kind of like back being a child with an NPD parent with no say in how your world actually is and what if going on.

YES! That is exactly what it feels like dealing with the medics. I used to deal with it by assuming they knew best and dissociating. As I started to understand about CPTSD and realised I was dissociating I also realised that my T was right - the old coping mechanism was doing me no favours. So I have been working on this, which has been much to my benefit when dealing with medics since my pneumonia hospitalisation and beyond. But of course the triggers are there. So now the temptation is to have a tantrum to assuage little NK who wanted to show how she felt about it all, but clearly I have to look like a functional and reasonable adult if I want medics to take me seriously. So little NK yet again has to squash her tantrum. Dolly, your comment has been so helpful! Now I need to reassure little NK that I will only make us endure medics when we need to, and that sometimes you just have to put up with things stuck up your nose even when you know it's stupid.

[sanmagic7]

even when you know it's stupid, indeed, NK.  sometimes we do just have to put up w/ certain things till they are over with and we can get out of there.  get in the car and let little NK have her tantrum - she deserves to let all that neg. energy out. 

too many of those helping personnel, medics, therapists,  the 'big kahunas', so to speak, too often seem to have to shove their weight around, show why they have those letters after their names.  the secondary assistants, like nurses, PA's, OT's, PT's, massage therapists, etc., have, in my experience, been much more willing to listen to a patient/client and take their opinions into consideration. 

so frustrating!  glad for the 'no cancer' diagnosis.  yay for that!!!      also glad you're done with this part.  love and hugs