Triggered and Panicked!

[BrokenDollMagnet]

I was sorting files in my backup system when I found copies of stalking emails my ex sent me over a year ago. I forgot about them and didn't read them through at the time. Now I am in a panic and want to recoil hard from everyone and dump my current partner.

I know my ex is very mentally ill. That is why I dumped them after only a few months.  But they stalked me for over a year, robbed me, vandalized my property, and ran one * of a smear campaign that I was smart enough to never respond to.

But now my brain is in a panic. What if my current partner suddenly becomes just like my ex? What if I really was the horrible person my ex said I was after I dumped them?

My current partner is a ray of sunshine in my life. They treat me very well and I do the same for them. There is no abuse or even much disagreement. No tantrums, no passive-aggression, no manipulation... it feels so right, so happy. And this has been going strong for almost a year now.

What if I am a monster who is as terrible as my ex says people say I am? Who were these invisible and unnamed people they said came out to tell them how horrible I am?

I hadn't dated for ten years before my ex, who on earth would sit on the side line for ten years out of sight only to contact my ex only after I dumped them?

Why did my ex stalk me for over a year after I dumped them after only a two month relationship?

What do I believe?!

[Three Roses]

"Why did my ex stalk me for over a year after I dumped them after only a two month relationship?"

Because they are sick.

Your current partner sounds lovely. Please do not force them into the same box your ex crawled out of. They are not your ex.

"But they stalked me for over a year, robbed me, vandalized my property, and ran one * of a smear campaign that I was smart enough to never respond to."

This is a person you should never listen to. They will lie, stalk, steal, ruin, and lie some more just to suit their own agenda. Whatever they said about you, believe the opposite! You never responded to the smear campaign but the recording is still running in your head. Turn it off! Unravel the tape! Break the cd!  

Don't let them back in your head to ruin what you've built.  <3