So Glad I've Found This Site

[Molleymae]

Hi,
I am new to the group and I'm glad I've found you. I am 62 and my trauma started when I was 6 or 7 and lasted until I was 15. I THOUGHT I had done a good job of ignoring it until I was 40, when a family reunion pretty much made me implode. At the time I was married ( my husband was not aware of the trauma .... no one was ) with 3 children and within a year, I was separated, gambling, drinking, quit my job, let my husband have the kids ..... Long story short I am still here, still trying to deal with it. Some days are good other not so much. I have been in counseling on and off but I have never been in a group or online forum so here I am. Thank You for accepting me
Molleymae

[Kizzie]

Hi and a warm welcome to Out of the Storm Molleymae! 

That's the thing about complex relational trauma, you can shove it down and then something happens that makes it surge up and out which it sounds like what happened to you. Seeing abusive family members, especially in a group, can definitely be the trigger. I'm sorry that happened to you and life imploded. I hope in addition to your therapy, being here helps you to deal with your CPTSD. We're good listeners and we sure get it so there's not much you can say that many of us haven't been through ourselves.

Glad you found your way here. 

[trying2c]

((((Molleymae))))

It sounds like the world fell apart when those memories came through, to the nth degree..

I am so sorry that you held your memories down for SO long...I hope that you pick up lots of support and understanding here.

You are not alone. 🫂 🫂

trying2c

[strawberrycat]

Hello Molleymae, welcome to the forum. I hope you find the understanding, support, and connection you deserve here 

[NarcKiddo]

Welcome to OOTS, Molleymae. I'm glad you found us.

[Chart]

Welcome Molleymae, I'm interpreting a little bit but I'm very impressed that you have taken the steps to become conscious of what happened to you and then how you subsequently reacted. Effectively, Cptsd is the driving force that very often takes over our behavior and spirit and can easily plunge us down the rabbit hole. I really think I know what you are talking about. It happened to me in 2023 when I abruptly broke up with my girlfriend and then plunged into the deepest depression I'd ever know. I'm still learning and coming to understand what truly happened. But the voyage has been immensely helped by the support and understanding I've found here on the Forum.
Welcome again!
 

[Hope67]

Welcome Molleymae