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#1
Recovery Journals / Re: Living As All of Me
Last post by HannahOne - Today at 01:45:47 AMBack at you, TheBigBlue! 
#2
Recovery Journals / Re: Living As All of Me
Last post by HannahOne - Today at 01:44:48 AMThank you, Chart. I really appreciate the support. There is definitely commitment and love here, and understanding. Feeling grateful. And sad.
#3
Recovery Journals / Re: Living As All of Me
Last post by HannahOne - Today at 01:43:47 AMThank you NarcKiddo! I really appreciate the support.
This sucks.
thank you for reading and responding. Means a lot.
This sucks.
thank you for reading and responding. Means a lot.
#4
Recovery Journals / Re: Miscellaneous ramblings of...
Last post by HannahOne - Today at 01:42:09 AMNarcKiddo, thank you for your post.
I really struggle with self-doubt too. When triggered,
100%. Your experience makes sense to me.
Given our past experiences, it makes sense that we would have self-doubt, second-guess, feel unsure. But it's painful.
I'm sorry.
I really struggle with self-doubt too. When triggered,
100%. Your experience makes sense to me. Given our past experiences, it makes sense that we would have self-doubt, second-guess, feel unsure. But it's painful.
I'm sorry.
#5
Recovery Journals / Re: I Am
Last post by HannahOne - Today at 01:36:33 AMWith you in the self-hatred today, Bach.
I'm going to try your strategy.
You are not alone.
I'm going to try your strategy.
You are not alone.
#6
Sexual Abuse / Re: how to bring up SA and sex...
Last post by LaylaDalal - February 17, 2026, 11:15:35 PMHey,
I really like the answer around interviewing the therapist and asking them questions (if they can deal with sexual abuse etc) before disclosing any details about yourself.
If you want to try to talk about your experiences, I could suggest to maybe introduces the subject via Email before or to prepare a note you can either read to them during the appointment or just hand them, depending on your state. That's how I do it often with my therapist when I'm too overwhelmed/dissociated to talk about any details.
You could also do this with the questions. In my opinion, its completely valid to ask them if and how they deal with sexual trauma and/or trauma around sexual identity. It also feels valid to tell them that its hard for you to trust a gay man at this point because of your experiences - that might be hard to name but their answer to that would give you a lot of information wether its a fit or not.
Wishing you all the best and a lot of care and compassion for yourself! Even if you just pass a note or say 3 words or something similar - that's completely valid. I think you're being so courageous, already.
Oh wow, just realized - the post is from 4 years ago, ha ha! I hope you've found a great solution by now ❤️
I really like the answer around interviewing the therapist and asking them questions (if they can deal with sexual abuse etc) before disclosing any details about yourself.
If you want to try to talk about your experiences, I could suggest to maybe introduces the subject via Email before or to prepare a note you can either read to them during the appointment or just hand them, depending on your state. That's how I do it often with my therapist when I'm too overwhelmed/dissociated to talk about any details.
You could also do this with the questions. In my opinion, its completely valid to ask them if and how they deal with sexual trauma and/or trauma around sexual identity. It also feels valid to tell them that its hard for you to trust a gay man at this point because of your experiences - that might be hard to name but their answer to that would give you a lot of information wether its a fit or not.
Wishing you all the best and a lot of care and compassion for yourself! Even if you just pass a note or say 3 words or something similar - that's completely valid. I think you're being so courageous, already.
Oh wow, just realized - the post is from 4 years ago, ha ha! I hope you've found a great solution by now ❤️
#7
Please Introduce Yourself Here / Re: Introducing myself - hi, m...
Last post by LaylaDalal - February 17, 2026, 10:57:50 PMThank you so much for all your welcoming messages! ❤️
#8
General Discussion / Re: Taking part in a research
Last post by Blueberry - February 17, 2026, 08:54:28 PMGood for you, Teddy bear! I've taken part in a couple of studies and felt that I was at least contributing lived experience with cptsd. It being a field that needs more research. Sometimes it was a little destabilising for me. I hope you don't experience that.
#9
Recovery Journals / Re: I Am
Last post by Blueberry - February 17, 2026, 08:43:39 PMQuote from: Bach on February 15, 2026, 06:17:18 PMI wish I wasn't a black hole of neediness and dysfunction.
I read this right next to the picture of a parrot in your avatar. I'm wondering if that parrot thinks you're so needy and dysfunctional. I bet they don't.
(Although I do unfortunately understand where you're coming from with that wish.)
#10
Please Introduce Yourself Here / Re: Introducing myself - hi, m...
Last post by Blueberry - February 17, 2026, 08:39:16 PMWelcome to the forum Layla 
You're very welcome to go step by step here, only opening up as much as you personally can.
You're very welcome to go step by step here, only opening up as much as you personally can.