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#1
Conferences/Courses / FREE EFT / Tapping Conference ...
Last post by Blueberry - Today at 07:37:04 PMhttps://summit.tappingsolution.com/reg/af?fpr=michaelstone
From the email blurb:
We often assume our reactions and habits are fixed — simply "who we are."
Yet many of these patterns are learned responses shaped by experience, and research suggests they may be open to change.
With this understanding in mind, we're sharing an educational resource that explores a simple, evidence-informed approach some people find supportive for stress, emotional regulation, and everyday well-being.
The Tapping World Summit is a free, 10-day online educational event beginning February 23rd. It explores a technique known as Tapping (also called EFT), which integrates gentle acupressure with focused attention and is increasingly studied for its effects on stress and nervous system regulation.
As always: These types of conferences and summits are free during the conference. Once you sign up, you'll get a fair number of emails suggesting you pay for permanent access. That's really not necessary. The material gets recycled - it'll come up in another conference/summit in a few months!
+ see my post here for additional general info: https://www.cptsd.org/forum/index.php?topic=16458.0
From the email blurb:
We often assume our reactions and habits are fixed — simply "who we are."
Yet many of these patterns are learned responses shaped by experience, and research suggests they may be open to change.
With this understanding in mind, we're sharing an educational resource that explores a simple, evidence-informed approach some people find supportive for stress, emotional regulation, and everyday well-being.
The Tapping World Summit is a free, 10-day online educational event beginning February 23rd. It explores a technique known as Tapping (also called EFT), which integrates gentle acupressure with focused attention and is increasingly studied for its effects on stress and nervous system regulation.
As always: These types of conferences and summits are free during the conference. Once you sign up, you'll get a fair number of emails suggesting you pay for permanent access. That's really not necessary. The material gets recycled - it'll come up in another conference/summit in a few months!
+ see my post here for additional general info: https://www.cptsd.org/forum/index.php?topic=16458.0
#2
Memory/Cognitive Issues / Re: How Trauma Affects Memory
Last post by GoSlash27 - Today at 06:31:25 PMNarcKiddo,
The right brain has encoded the emotion rather than specific visual information and certainly not language information if the memory is pre-verbal or before much left brain involvement.
I'm not sure how the theory works, but in my case I have many emotion- only flashbacks and I don't really count those as memory fragments. My sensory impression fragments include all of the above. Sights, sounds, emotions. Language comprehension is absent in the earliest one. My parents are talking and I hear their voices, but I don't understand what they're saying. The rest include not only the words said, but the sound of the voices speaking them. They are extremely vivid and detailed.
What they are missing is any context or personal narrative. There is no sense of "this is where I was, this is what I was doing, this is what was going on". It's just a snapshot of the experience.
Best,
-Slashy
The right brain has encoded the emotion rather than specific visual information and certainly not language information if the memory is pre-verbal or before much left brain involvement.
I'm not sure how the theory works, but in my case I have many emotion- only flashbacks and I don't really count those as memory fragments. My sensory impression fragments include all of the above. Sights, sounds, emotions. Language comprehension is absent in the earliest one. My parents are talking and I hear their voices, but I don't understand what they're saying. The rest include not only the words said, but the sound of the voices speaking them. They are extremely vivid and detailed.
What they are missing is any context or personal narrative. There is no sense of "this is where I was, this is what I was doing, this is what was going on". It's just a snapshot of the experience.
Best,
-Slashy
#3
Recovery Journals / Re: Activating myself
Last post by NarcKiddo - Today at 06:25:05 PMQuote from: Blueberry on Today at 03:53:25 PMDifferent days, different needs.
I'm glad you have recognised this. I hope you manage to process what you need to.
#4
Recovery Journals / Re: The ramblings of an abused...
Last post by NarcKiddo - Today at 06:19:57 PMhttps://www.cptsd.org/forum/index.php?topic=10108.0;topicseen
I've added a few comments to this thread on how trauma affects memory
I've added a few comments to this thread on how trauma affects memory
#5
Books & Articles / Embracing Our Fragmented Selve...
Last post by HannahOne - Today at 04:35:13 PMFisher's new workbook is the most accessible way I've found to understand the TIST model and work with yourself to have more clarity, calm, and connection. Highly recommend if you recognize yourself having fight/flight/freeze/fawn reactions that you can't manage, if you've tried various models but no therapy is working for you, if you don't have memories or just can't talk about it, or if you are having difficulties in relationships despite applying your best skills. If part of you feels like you just want to quit and another part of you is determined to heal, check out this model.
Fisher has been in the field for thirty years and build TIST from the ground up working with survivors in a psychiatric institution, using the best of Sensorimotor Therapy, the new neurobiology of trauma, IFS and structural dissociation theory.
"Trauma fragments the self, leaving behind parts of us that carry fear, rage, shame, hopelessness, and despair. In Embracing Our Fragmented Selves, internationally renowned trauma therapist Dr. Janina Fisher offers a clear and compassionate approach to working with these parts and restoring a sense of inner harmony.
Grounded in structural dissociation theory, parts work, and sensorimotor psychotherapy, this workbook teaches trauma survivors to:
Understand their symptoms as expressions of different parts
Notice, unblend from, and befriend traumatized parts
Recognize self-destructive behaviors as the behavior of protector parts
Offer reparative experiences to wounded young parts
Whether you're a trauma survivor or therapist, this book serves as a reminder that every part of us, no matter how wounded or extreme, is deserving of care. Healing begins when we meet those parts with support, appreciation, and acceptance."
From PESI website
https://www.pesi.com/item/embracing-fragmented-selves-164573?srsltid=AfmBOorVLk4xtcDv45FSftphadjmAnt8FIiWOAQjbIhaRWQFE_JS5Srx
Fisher has been in the field for thirty years and build TIST from the ground up working with survivors in a psychiatric institution, using the best of Sensorimotor Therapy, the new neurobiology of trauma, IFS and structural dissociation theory.
"Trauma fragments the self, leaving behind parts of us that carry fear, rage, shame, hopelessness, and despair. In Embracing Our Fragmented Selves, internationally renowned trauma therapist Dr. Janina Fisher offers a clear and compassionate approach to working with these parts and restoring a sense of inner harmony.
Grounded in structural dissociation theory, parts work, and sensorimotor psychotherapy, this workbook teaches trauma survivors to:
Understand their symptoms as expressions of different parts
Notice, unblend from, and befriend traumatized parts
Recognize self-destructive behaviors as the behavior of protector parts
Offer reparative experiences to wounded young parts
Whether you're a trauma survivor or therapist, this book serves as a reminder that every part of us, no matter how wounded or extreme, is deserving of care. Healing begins when we meet those parts with support, appreciation, and acceptance."
From PESI website
https://www.pesi.com/item/embracing-fragmented-selves-164573?srsltid=AfmBOorVLk4xtcDv45FSftphadjmAnt8FIiWOAQjbIhaRWQFE_JS5Srx
#6
Recovery Journals / Re: Activating myself
Last post by Blueberry - Today at 03:53:25 PMToday I thought I might as well go and do my duolingo at least and then discovered while doing it that it was so NOT the right thing. My mind was somewhere else, I need to process something, to grieve probably. My dreams had grief in them, a grief I haven't been through yet. Fairly present day grief in fact. Can't push that aside and do duolingo. No reason to do so either. Different days, different needs.
#7
Recovery Journals / Re: The ramblings of an abused...
Last post by HannahOne - Today at 03:49:50 PMSlashy, I've been reading along. I don't know if this is helpful or not to hear, that I too have very early memories that I "shouldn't" have. These were not reported to me by anyone, I just have specific images in my mind that come with a felt sense of the experience that I can recall. About ten of these memories from the ages of about 1.5-3. Only one of them is of a moment right before a traumatic incident, the rest just a moment in time. At one point I sought validation for these and through interviewing family members and finding some old photos of my environment at those ages, many aspects of these memories were clearly accurate to the setting. I continued to gather doctor's records, state/school records and other things for later on in my life and overall the process was incredibly helpful to me in forming a more solid sense of self, and of self-trust.
So, I believe you. If you feel it important, then I hope you keep going.
So, I believe you. If you feel it important, then I hope you keep going.
#8
Memory/Cognitive Issues / Re: How Trauma Affects Memory
Last post by Blueberry - Today at 03:47:07 PMQuote from: NarcKiddo on Today at 12:09:29 PMOne of the reasons that EFs can be so hard for many of us to make sense of is because they are essentially a right brain flashback. The right brain has encoded the emotion rather than specific visual information and certainly not language information if the memory is pre-verbal or before much left brain involvement.
Such :lightbulb: information for me that I'm quoting it here for myself! Thanks NK and Slashy too for having started this particular conversation.
#9
Recovery Journals / Re: The ramblings of an abused...
Last post by GoSlash27 - Today at 03:41:28 PMDollyvee,
The "stitching a timeline together" isn't the part that they deem impossible. That's just clues, forensic investigation, and time.
The "impossible" bit is that I have this many memory fragments from such an early age to work with. I should not be able to remember all of this.
It was really upsetting me to consider the notion that my early memories might not be real, but I've corroborated too many of them.
Now that I better understand the mechanism and see that other sufferers of dissociative amnesia have reported a similar experience, I feel better about the whole thing.
I have changed my mind about visiting my T. I have a lot of stuff to talk over and it would be helpful.
In the meantime, I'm trying very hard to *not* think about this. I need some time for my anxiety to ramp down.
Thanks for your kind words,
-John
The "stitching a timeline together" isn't the part that they deem impossible. That's just clues, forensic investigation, and time.
The "impossible" bit is that I have this many memory fragments from such an early age to work with. I should not be able to remember all of this.
It was really upsetting me to consider the notion that my early memories might not be real, but I've corroborated too many of them.
Now that I better understand the mechanism and see that other sufferers of dissociative amnesia have reported a similar experience, I feel better about the whole thing.
I have changed my mind about visiting my T. I have a lot of stuff to talk over and it would be helpful.
In the meantime, I'm trying very hard to *not* think about this. I need some time for my anxiety to ramp down.
Thanks for your kind words,
-John
#10
Recovery Journals / Re: Living As All of Me
Last post by HannahOne - Today at 01:17:58 PMTBB not too long, thank you for sharing your experience! I am so sorry for what you went through and the trauma you experienced. I'm glad you are on the forum now. We can find healing. 
You are able to state it so clearly and succinctly. I am not there yet. It's hard for me to do that.
I relate to the wider family system having been traumatized by historical events. Both my parents' family had trauma. And a very traumatized mother who did not metabolize it, so I had to.
I relate to the self-erasure, the enormous responsibility. So much we carried. How did we do it?! By using CPTSD, by developing CPTSD.
I also relate to starting out being treated with CBT for depression, for me many years ago now. "I'm depressed, I'll do CBT." Ha. Ha. Ha. Ha.
How the turn tables.
One thing I'm noticing I'm feeling is a new objectivity. Just from two people sharing, I begin to place myself in a different context. Not so much "weird, strange, alien, crazy HannahOne with a backstory unlike anyone else that no one could ever understand and that I have to overcome immediately" to seeing the situation from a bit of a distance, as a fact that some people experience. Ie, not my fault. Not about me. Not personal to me. Not defining me. An accident of birth, not a character flaw or failure of me. A situation, not my soul.
I also notice even more compassion, for you as I read and then seeping over to myself. I admire TheBigBlue for how they navigated all this.... maybe I can also have some self-respect again. I navigated how I navigated. Maybe I can punish myself a little less. Or not at all. Maybe none of it was even about me at all.
Maybe that's the heart of the problem, nothing of my growing up was about ME. It was all about them. How can I make my life today about ME? Both kids are out today for the day, one at work, one at a friend's. Such a foreign concept, how can my life today be all about me, coming from inside of me?
Thank you for reading and sharing. I appreciate you and your understanding and your journey.
You are able to state it so clearly and succinctly. I am not there yet. It's hard for me to do that.
I relate to the wider family system having been traumatized by historical events. Both my parents' family had trauma. And a very traumatized mother who did not metabolize it, so I had to.
I relate to the self-erasure, the enormous responsibility. So much we carried. How did we do it?! By using CPTSD, by developing CPTSD.
I also relate to starting out being treated with CBT for depression, for me many years ago now. "I'm depressed, I'll do CBT." Ha. Ha. Ha. Ha.
How the turn tables. One thing I'm noticing I'm feeling is a new objectivity. Just from two people sharing, I begin to place myself in a different context. Not so much "weird, strange, alien, crazy HannahOne with a backstory unlike anyone else that no one could ever understand and that I have to overcome immediately" to seeing the situation from a bit of a distance, as a fact that some people experience. Ie, not my fault. Not about me. Not personal to me. Not defining me. An accident of birth, not a character flaw or failure of me. A situation, not my soul.
I also notice even more compassion, for you as I read and then seeping over to myself. I admire TheBigBlue for how they navigated all this.... maybe I can also have some self-respect again. I navigated how I navigated. Maybe I can punish myself a little less. Or not at all. Maybe none of it was even about me at all.
Maybe that's the heart of the problem, nothing of my growing up was about ME. It was all about them. How can I make my life today about ME? Both kids are out today for the day, one at work, one at a friend's. Such a foreign concept, how can my life today be all about me, coming from inside of me?
Thank you for reading and sharing. I appreciate you and your understanding and your journey.