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#1
Successes, Progress? / MOVED: Zoom meetings?
Last post by Kizzie - October 15, 2025, 11:47:44 PM #2
Letters of Recovery / Re: I Love You All The Same
Last post by Bach - October 15, 2025, 10:28:30 PMI'm angry at you for punishing me for telling you my feelings, when telling you my feelings is what you've been asking for all year. I'm angry that it has to FEEL like an intentional punishment even though I know it probably isn't.
I'm angry at all this time you're wasting, first with the ignoring and now with the complicated dance we apparently have to do before you'll let us get close again.
I'm angry that I can't just put you aside until you come back like you seem to be able to do to me.
I'm angry that I've been feeling like dying for the past three weeks because my stomach is in knots from the flashbacks and abandonment fears. I'm angry that I can't control this.
I'm angry that I can't tell you any of this. I'm angry that you won't tell me. I'm angry at things I can't even put into words. I'm angry that I exist. That you exist. I'm angry that I need you. That you can't tolerate needing me. I'm angry that you're such a traumatised little child and that it falls on me to understand.
I'm angry that I understand.
I'm angry at all this time you're wasting, first with the ignoring and now with the complicated dance we apparently have to do before you'll let us get close again.
I'm angry that I can't just put you aside until you come back like you seem to be able to do to me.
I'm angry that I've been feeling like dying for the past three weeks because my stomach is in knots from the flashbacks and abandonment fears. I'm angry that I can't control this.
I'm angry that I can't tell you any of this. I'm angry that you won't tell me. I'm angry at things I can't even put into words. I'm angry that I exist. That you exist. I'm angry that I need you. That you can't tolerate needing me. I'm angry that you're such a traumatised little child and that it falls on me to understand.
I'm angry that I understand.
#3
Recovery Journals / Re: TV's Repair Journal
Last post by StartingHealing - October 15, 2025, 10:27:10 PMlowbudgetTV,
I'm sure that there is a group out there that has found other purposes for VR headsets besides being connected to FB. Finding that group could be a interesting quest. Well, you know that they will be working on keeping things on the dl so meta won't get itchy about it. lawyers you know?
I'm sure that there is a group out there that has found other purposes for VR headsets besides being connected to FB. Finding that group could be a interesting quest. Well, you know that they will be working on keeping things on the dl so meta won't get itchy about it. lawyers you know?
#4
Recovery Journals / Re: Healing journal (tw) Anger...
Last post by StartingHealing - October 15, 2025, 10:13:11 PM10/15/25
Mixed emotions. I remember having pure experiences, laughing, joy, awe at beauty, pain, and somewhere along the line ..
Got word that there isn't going to be any services for the sister that passed. Part of her last wishes was what was told to me. Her obit was also posted which I read. The person that wrote it .. pegged her to a T.
Have a call with my mentor this late afternoon. It was scheduled for the 11th. However there was a doggo in her family that needed to go over the rainbow bridge.
I hope that a heartfelt conversation will help bring me some clarity that I think would be nice.
Wishing all here all the best
Mixed emotions. I remember having pure experiences, laughing, joy, awe at beauty, pain, and somewhere along the line ..
Got word that there isn't going to be any services for the sister that passed. Part of her last wishes was what was told to me. Her obit was also posted which I read. The person that wrote it .. pegged her to a T.
Have a call with my mentor this late afternoon. It was scheduled for the 11th. However there was a doggo in her family that needed to go over the rainbow bridge.
I hope that a heartfelt conversation will help bring me some clarity that I think would be nice.
Wishing all here all the best
#5
Recovery Journals / Re: TV's Repair Journal
Last post by lowbudgetTV - October 15, 2025, 07:50:52 PMMy partner is the one who posts on Craigslist when we need to, so I probably will just use that... But I also remembered as I was thinking about this: I also have to have a FB account for an old VR headset I use. Which sucks anyways, so maybe I can hack it up and put something else that doesn't require that stuff on there. Then I could truly be free of that old stupid website and company, haha.
#6
Successes, Progress? / Re: Progress during bad dream
Last post by NarcKiddo - October 15, 2025, 05:37:07 PMThat sounds like good progress. And it is interesting to read about the posture work your previous T did with you.
#7
Letters of Recovery / Re: Hi Love Bug, (A Letter for...
Last post by NarcKiddo - October 15, 2025, 05:35:05 PMI think that's beautiful. My Inner Child loved reading it too.
#8
Please Introduce Yourself Here / Re: Hello
Last post by NarcKiddo - October 15, 2025, 05:33:52 PMWelcome. I'm glad you found us. It's great that you have started on your healing journey and I wish you well as you continue.
#9
Please Introduce Yourself Here / Re: Hello
Last post by NarcKiddo - October 15, 2025, 02:47:39 PMHello, and welcome. I'm glad you have a therapist and I am glad you found us. Best wishes on your healing journey.
#10
Please Introduce Yourself Here / Re: Hello
Last post by SapphireQueen35 - October 15, 2025, 02:06:39 PMI see a therapist weekly. This is my next step to reaching out to the world around me.