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General Discussion / Re: Psychosis from extreme dis...
Last post by Chart - Today at 11:38:12 AM
Teddy bear, your posts are good in the sense that they revive certain subjects and re-activate threads that others (definitely me) might never have come across.
Thanks!
Chart
#3
Frustrated? Set Backs? / Re: stuck in a loop
Last post by dollyvee - Today at 09:58:19 AMI'm sorry asdis, all that is really tough.
It took me years of trying to get someone to believe me that something was going on and it wasn't all in my head, trying to manage it on my own. Sometimes that's what you have to do and it is in way, like reliving my trauma again ie being in the hospital with my m because I couldn't breathe at age 5, questioning if I really needed to be there because she had to get up and go to work the next morning. Did she stop smoking or consider it when the doctors told her it was a problem for me? Definitely not.
So, I read a lot and tried a ton of different things, trying to get some answers from doctors over the years. What I found that worked for me, was making some changes ie cutting out gluten when I thought my symptoms were related to Hashimoto's Thyroiditis. I cut it out for three weeks and had a reaction (acute joint pain) about 20 minutes after I ate it. That signalled to me that something was up. So, I stuck with it. However, all my symptoms didn't go away, but I could see a very real cause and effect from that. I asked the doctors to genetically test me for celiac and they did, but it was neagative. They had no further answers. The inflammation took a long time to go away and clear from my system, but it did until I moved and was exposed to mold again and then proceeded another round of trying to find out what was going on. I miss eating sourdough bread, but to me, the benefits of not feeling sick that I could distinctly feel, outweighed the foods that I could no longer eat.
I will also say that my symptoms were not just on a physical level, eating gluten also did something to my mood and cognitive function. I would feel like I "hated the world," and would feel quite mentally dark as well as lacking the ability to focus. So, this stuff is tricky because the symptoms aren't always solely physical. I know someone who tried the autoimmune paleo diet after I suggested it to her, and it made an incredible improvement (so much so that she was thinking about selling her car because it was so painful to shift at the end of a working day, to not having that problem), but the diet is/was so difficult, and she was having to meal prep on top of working 14 hour days that she didn't know how to keep up. Of course if you're having issues with oxalates and/or salicytes as well, it can compound the foods that you can't eat. But over time, these little steps help to calm your body down a bit to take the next step.
The other thing I found that helped me was to find online communities of people who had the things I thought I did and learn for them. It helped me find out what are the correct diagnostic tests that doctors should be running, so there wasn't your test results are fine and there's nothing wrong with you, as well as what are the functional levels that actually need to be on a good lab result (functional medicine was what helped me source the problem and it does suck because it costs an absolute fortune, but your insurance may cover it as I think some peoples' do). It was also good to hear stories about what did and didn''t work for people, but there are also dead ends too, and people chasing their own snake oil cures.
You are taking care of yourself in a way that your FOO didn't and that's great
Sending you support to take the next step.
It took me years of trying to get someone to believe me that something was going on and it wasn't all in my head, trying to manage it on my own. Sometimes that's what you have to do and it is in way, like reliving my trauma again ie being in the hospital with my m because I couldn't breathe at age 5, questioning if I really needed to be there because she had to get up and go to work the next morning. Did she stop smoking or consider it when the doctors told her it was a problem for me? Definitely not.
So, I read a lot and tried a ton of different things, trying to get some answers from doctors over the years. What I found that worked for me, was making some changes ie cutting out gluten when I thought my symptoms were related to Hashimoto's Thyroiditis. I cut it out for three weeks and had a reaction (acute joint pain) about 20 minutes after I ate it. That signalled to me that something was up. So, I stuck with it. However, all my symptoms didn't go away, but I could see a very real cause and effect from that. I asked the doctors to genetically test me for celiac and they did, but it was neagative. They had no further answers. The inflammation took a long time to go away and clear from my system, but it did until I moved and was exposed to mold again and then proceeded another round of trying to find out what was going on. I miss eating sourdough bread, but to me, the benefits of not feeling sick that I could distinctly feel, outweighed the foods that I could no longer eat.
I will also say that my symptoms were not just on a physical level, eating gluten also did something to my mood and cognitive function. I would feel like I "hated the world," and would feel quite mentally dark as well as lacking the ability to focus. So, this stuff is tricky because the symptoms aren't always solely physical. I know someone who tried the autoimmune paleo diet after I suggested it to her, and it made an incredible improvement (so much so that she was thinking about selling her car because it was so painful to shift at the end of a working day, to not having that problem), but the diet is/was so difficult, and she was having to meal prep on top of working 14 hour days that she didn't know how to keep up. Of course if you're having issues with oxalates and/or salicytes as well, it can compound the foods that you can't eat. But over time, these little steps help to calm your body down a bit to take the next step.
The other thing I found that helped me was to find online communities of people who had the things I thought I did and learn for them. It helped me find out what are the correct diagnostic tests that doctors should be running, so there wasn't your test results are fine and there's nothing wrong with you, as well as what are the functional levels that actually need to be on a good lab result (functional medicine was what helped me source the problem and it does suck because it costs an absolute fortune, but your insurance may cover it as I think some peoples' do). It was also good to hear stories about what did and didn''t work for people, but there are also dead ends too, and people chasing their own snake oil cures.
You are taking care of yourself in a way that your FOO didn't and that's great
Sending you support to take the next step. #5
Letters of Recovery / Re: To my sub-conscious
Last post by Chart - Today at 09:36:40 AMI love NarcKiddo's idea of nomenclature for Cptsd symptoms and crises!
TheBigBlue, your description made me think of Woody Allen's film Everything You Ever Wanted To Know About Sex... the bit where they're all in different parts of the body...
Yeah, laughter is really a nice change.
TheBigBlue, your description made me think of Woody Allen's film Everything You Ever Wanted To Know About Sex... the bit where they're all in different parts of the body...
Yeah, laughter is really a nice change.
#6
General Discussion / Re: Psychosis from extreme dis...
Last post by Teddy bear - January 11, 2026, 09:03:05 PMThanks, Blueberry, I understand
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Symptoms - Other / Re: Contentious Symptom
Last post by Teddy bear - January 11, 2026, 09:01:24 PMHi DogMan,
Not sure whether you are still experiencing the symptoms, as this topic hasn't been updated. Hopefully not.
But just in case, the voices you described sound similar to what I was hearing.
I am on a neuroleptic now and don't hear them while taking it. I've had a few attempts to taper off, which resulted in psychotic episodes—likely due to dopaminergic sensitivity.
My diagnosis is schizophrenia, though I have doubts about it. In my region, doctors rarely question a diagnosis when symptoms resemble psychosis.
But I feel I differ from other patients with psychosis or schizophrenia whom I've met.
I also considered dissociative disorders before my first hospitalization. Back then, I was persuaded it was psychosis, but now I'm reassessing that again.
Not sure whether you are still experiencing the symptoms, as this topic hasn't been updated. Hopefully not.
But just in case, the voices you described sound similar to what I was hearing.
I am on a neuroleptic now and don't hear them while taking it. I've had a few attempts to taper off, which resulted in psychotic episodes—likely due to dopaminergic sensitivity.
My diagnosis is schizophrenia, though I have doubts about it. In my region, doctors rarely question a diagnosis when symptoms resemble psychosis.
But I feel I differ from other patients with psychosis or schizophrenia whom I've met.
I also considered dissociative disorders before my first hospitalization. Back then, I was persuaded it was psychosis, but now I'm reassessing that again.
#8
General Discussion / Re: Psychosis from extreme dis...
Last post by Blueberry - January 11, 2026, 08:52:14 PMNevish hasn't been on the forum since 2017 So likely not to reply Teddybear.
#9
General Discussion / Re: Psychosis from extreme dis...
Last post by Teddy bear - January 11, 2026, 08:30:17 PMHi there Nevish, not sure if it's okay to revisit this topic,
but I'm reading this book now and I think I may be a case of extreme dissociation resulting in psychosis.
If this is still relevant, please feel free to discuss it with me. I'm also interested to learn more about other people's experiences.
Kind regards
but I'm reading this book now and I think I may be a case of extreme dissociation resulting in psychosis.
If this is still relevant, please feel free to discuss it with me. I'm also interested to learn more about other people's experiences.
Kind regards
#10
Recovery Journals / Re: Desert Flower's Recovery J...
Last post by Desert Flower - January 11, 2026, 08:13:05 PMHi TheBigBlue, thank you for your thoughtful response. And I'm very sorry you have had to experience such a major collapse these past weeks. I do hope with you will feel better soon.
Many times when writing here on the forum I feel I'm just letting out the words to let them out. Many times I do not expect to be met with such understanding and wisdom. When I am, it just amazes me. Like now.
And what you write about internal safety resonates deeply too. The times that I did feel safe internally were the times I was connected to what I have come to call my Self. And be able to relate to others from that Self.
I'll think some more about what to tell or not to tell the company doctor. Maybe not mention the parts. But do point out that this pattern has been going on for decades.
Many times when writing here on the forum I feel I'm just letting out the words to let them out. Many times I do not expect to be met with such understanding and wisdom. When I am, it just amazes me. Like now.
Quote from: TheBigBlue on January 11, 2026, 04:27:27 PMwhat looked like "strength" was actually over-adaptation. Survival depended on hyper-functioning, vigilance, maintaining harmony, suppressing my own reality and needs to preserve connection – self-erasure through compliance, endurance, silence, and not burdening others. That came at the cost of authenticity, needs, and safety.This resonates deeply. It makes very good sense to me why indeed it bothers me so whenever people point out I'm 'strong'.
And what you write about internal safety resonates deeply too. The times that I did feel safe internally were the times I was connected to what I have come to call my Self. And be able to relate to others from that Self.
I'll think some more about what to tell or not to tell the company doctor. Maybe not mention the parts. But do point out that this pattern has been going on for decades.