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Recovery Journals / Re: Dalloway´s Recovery Journa...
Last post by Hope67 - Today at 06:26:05 PMQuote from: Dalloway on October 27, 2025, 07:21:30 PMLately I´ve been involved in different activities with different groups of people that filled me with a lot of energy. For the first time in my life I experienced real human connections and presence in the company of other people. It gave me the impression that I truly exist, that I´m not just an abstract something without borders and contours. This experience was out of this world and left me wanting for more. The more real I start to feel, the more I need to be connected to the reality. I realized that I´ve always had this need, I was born as an expectation for it. So when I started to experience it, it was as if a valve had been opened and now I yearn for more. I know that there´s huge amount of love that I´m capable of giving and receiving and that it´s always been my natural need.
This is lovely - I am also happy to hear you've experienced real human connection
#2
Recovery Journals / Re: starting over
Last post by Hope67 - Today at 06:20:16 PMWow, great that you've completed the book (you and your D) Congratulations! 
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Recovery Journals / Re: I Am
Last post by Hope67 - Today at 06:18:02 PMHi Bach,
Even noticing that good feels unsafe is a step toward understanding yourself, and maybe it's ok to let good feelings arrive in small doses, so they don't feel overwhelming. I don't know. But I'm sorry that you didn't sleep well last night and that you're feeling low as can be today. Sending you a hug of support, although a very gentle one, as I know you're experiencing hurt today.
Even noticing that good feels unsafe is a step toward understanding yourself, and maybe it's ok to let good feelings arrive in small doses, so they don't feel overwhelming. I don't know. But I'm sorry that you didn't sleep well last night and that you're feeling low as can be today. Sending you a hug of support, although a very gentle one, as I know you're experiencing hurt today.
#6
The Cafe / Re: The Love of Libraries
Last post by Hope67 - Today at 06:05:19 PMI feel joy when I enter a library, it is exciting, comforting, and I feel excited as I look to discover which books to accompany back home. I really love it.
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Recovery Journals / Re: I Am
Last post by Bach - Today at 06:04:41 PMNK, I have so many issues around food that it never occurred to me that there might be issues related to having sit-down meals with my family. My mother was ragingly eating-disordered, had a terrible relationship with food and hated to cook, while my stepfather had previously been married to a gourmet, so I can well imagine that there was subterranean stress around dinners with my family when I was living with her. I'm pretty sure that dinners with the family when I lived with my father and stepmother were better, but it's hard to remember. I've always assumed that my problems with food stem from malnourishment as an infant, obesity as a teenager, and spending my early life observing my mother's aforementioned raging eating disorder, but there probably IS more to it than that. What do you know, another set of mysteries to grapple with!
Feeling good feels unsafe. I'm trying to rewire that. Not much opportunity to work on that today, I'm afraid. I didn't sleep well last night and today I'm low as can be. That's probably a backlash from yesterday's conscious effort to nurture the positive feelings and stirrings of optimism that I experienced a few times in the past week, but I will not allow it to discourage me. Even though it hurts. Even though everything hurts.
Feeling good feels unsafe. I'm trying to rewire that. Not much opportunity to work on that today, I'm afraid. I didn't sleep well last night and today I'm low as can be. That's probably a backlash from yesterday's conscious effort to nurture the positive feelings and stirrings of optimism that I experienced a few times in the past week, but I will not allow it to discourage me. Even though it hurts. Even though everything hurts.
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Inner Child Work / Re: The Doll - Possible Trigge...
Last post by Hope67 - Today at 05:58:18 PMOops, sorry about that, I thought I'd not responded to Chart's message, but it was on page 1, and there are 2 pages - I feel silly now - but thank you again.
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Inner Child Work / Re: The Doll - Possible Trigge...
Last post by Hope67 - Today at 05:57:35 PMThanks Chart for what you wrote, I just came back to this thread today, and saw your message.
#10
Please Introduce Yourself Here / Re: new here - still in the st...
Last post by Hope67 - Today at 05:52:24 PMWelcome 