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#1
Recovery Journals / Re: Hope's Journal 2026
Last post by dollyvee - Today at 10:35:31 AMHope, I hope you enjoy your digital vacation.
Thank you both for talking about Mother Hunger. As NK mentioned, it's funny how the synchronicity seems to happen. I had been looking for books to help with reparenting, and wasn't sure where to start. So, that might be a good place.
Sending you support,
dolly
Thank you both for talking about Mother Hunger. As NK mentioned, it's funny how the synchronicity seems to happen. I had been looking for books to help with reparenting, and wasn't sure where to start. So, that might be a good place.
Sending you support,
dolly
#2
Recovery Journals / Re: Post-Traumatic Growth Jour...
Last post by TheBigBlue - Today at 02:51:30 AMSO, thank you for putting this into words and for sharing the poem. It carries so much gentleness and honesty. What you're describing makes deep sense - and it's also so hard for many of us. 🤍
#3
Recovery Journals / Re: Post-Traumatic Growth Jour...
Last post by Marcine - Today at 12:17:53 AMHi SO,
Your poem speaks to me— how hard we all *try* and all the things we *do* to "become" ourselves. As if we aren't already enough...
"... born worthy... Listen. Remember."
Thank you for sharing your writing.
And I enjoyed the music you linked, a beat without tons of hype and with jazz influence.
Am I remembering correctly that somewhere on the forum you mentioned Philip Glass' music?
I am a fan, Glassworks is a classic.
Your poem speaks to me— how hard we all *try* and all the things we *do* to "become" ourselves. As if we aren't already enough...
"... born worthy... Listen. Remember."
Thank you for sharing your writing.
And I enjoyed the music you linked, a beat without tons of hype and with jazz influence.
Am I remembering correctly that somewhere on the forum you mentioned Philip Glass' music?
I am a fan, Glassworks is a classic.
#4
Recovery Journals / Re: Living As All of Me
Last post by TheBigBlue - February 01, 2026, 10:56:35 PMHannahOne, what you're describing makes a lot of sense. Being genuinely seen and met - real, mutual connection - that's gold. After something like that, the system often finally lets go enough for tiredness, sadness, or vulnerability to show up (even the little cold-bugs) - not because anything is wrong, but because something important happened.
Nobody deserves to be raised this way - honestly, wolves might be more caring than that. 🐺💛 A big, supportive hug for little HannahOne.
There's no need to push through this or make sense of it right now. Nothing to fix, nothing to do - just permission to rest, to slow down, to let things be exactly as they are. The world really will keep spinning (I know, sometimes I don't believe that either 🙂). You don't have to hold yourself together here. Here, we hold each other - quietly and steadily. 🤍
Nobody deserves to be raised this way - honestly, wolves might be more caring than that. 🐺💛 A big, supportive hug for little HannahOne.
There's no need to push through this or make sense of it right now. Nothing to fix, nothing to do - just permission to rest, to slow down, to let things be exactly as they are. The world really will keep spinning (I know, sometimes I don't believe that either 🙂). You don't have to hold yourself together here. Here, we hold each other - quietly and steadily. 🤍
#5
Employment / Re: "Picking" a career
Last post by Teddy bear - February 01, 2026, 06:35:46 PMQuote from: Kizzie on February 01, 2026, 05:27:45 PMUnfortunately LadyBugBee is no longer coming to the forum but I think this is a good thread to carry on with given CPTSD affects our work life.
This is slightly different from what LBB posted about but working takes a lot out of us especially if we're dysregulated and trying to hold it together while at work. I remember coming home some days and just collapsing because of the effort of appearing like everything was "normal" with me. It would take cocooning all evening and overnight just to be able to slog through another day until I was able to regulate again. I am retired now and glad to not be dealing with work related stress and CPTSD symptoms I must say.
I think there are countries where CPTSD is classed as a disability now - if you happen to be in a location where this is available it would be interesting to hear from you and how it all works.
Hi Kizzie,
Thank you for your reply and for sharing your experience.
When I used to work full-time, I also often felt exhausted and very tired, and I experienced some major burnouts.
Later, I switched to freelancing and was mostly travelling, as I had a passive income.
Then I went through a rough period after returning to my home country, which ended in a few involuntary hospitalisations due to psychotic episodes.
It was very hard, and I was unable to work for about ten years.
Meanwhile, I've been recovering gradually. I finished a few courses and managed to find a remote job, but the project was eventually closed.
So, I keep studying through free online courses and am still considering an MSc, among other options.
In Russia, where I still live, only ICD-10 is officially accepted, so most doctors here don't know about CPTSD at all...
Or they believe they aren't formally allowed to assign this diagnosis.
Because of that, it isn't classified for disability allowance.
As I mentioned previously, I have another diagnosis: F20. A few years ago, I started using it to access some payments and benefits.
Although it's not enough to live on, especially in a metropolis.
Currently, I often live with my parents in the countryside, where my dog and cat are.
This helps with expenses.
But I still want to organise my income and do something meaningful—whether in IT, as before, or in something creative like drawing/painting, preferably through freelancing.
#6
Employment / Re: "Picking" a career
Last post by Kizzie - February 01, 2026, 05:27:45 PMUnfortunately LadyBugBee is no longer coming to the forum but I think this is a good thread to carry on with given CPTSD affects our work life.
This is slightly different from what LBB posted about but working takes a lot out of us especially if we're dysregulated and trying to hold it together while at work. I remember coming home some days and just collapsing because of the effort of appearing like everything was "normal" with me. It would take cocooning all evening and overnight just to be able to slog through another day until I was able to regulate again. I am retired now and glad to not be dealing with work related stress and CPTSD symptoms I must say.
I think there are countries where CPTSD is classed as a disability now - if you happen to be in a location where this is available it would be interesting to hear from you and how it all works.
This is slightly different from what LBB posted about but working takes a lot out of us especially if we're dysregulated and trying to hold it together while at work. I remember coming home some days and just collapsing because of the effort of appearing like everything was "normal" with me. It would take cocooning all evening and overnight just to be able to slog through another day until I was able to regulate again. I am retired now and glad to not be dealing with work related stress and CPTSD symptoms I must say.
I think there are countries where CPTSD is classed as a disability now - if you happen to be in a location where this is available it would be interesting to hear from you and how it all works.
#7
Other / Re: Psychosis as a result of t...
Last post by Teddy bear - February 01, 2026, 05:23:18 PMSome venting today:
I saw a new psychiatrist today at a clinic. It was yet another horrible experience.
-No empathy.
-Too young and inexperienced to handle anything more or less serious.
-Defensive and passive-aggressive in response to my questions.
-She clearly did not believe most of what I said.
-A clear flair of punitive psychiatry: she studied and practiced mostly here, with only limited experience abroad.
-No awareness or understanding of cPTSD/chronic trauma and its consequences.
This was especially disappointing because the administrator had led me to believe she was a very good and professional doctor.
The worst part: she stated that cutting a tablet in half is always safe—which is absolutely dangerous advice!
I left feedback about her at the clinic. My "diagnosis" for this doctor: professional incompetence.
Will continue my search a bit later on.
I saw a new psychiatrist today at a clinic. It was yet another horrible experience.
-No empathy.
-Too young and inexperienced to handle anything more or less serious.
-Defensive and passive-aggressive in response to my questions.
-She clearly did not believe most of what I said.
-A clear flair of punitive psychiatry: she studied and practiced mostly here, with only limited experience abroad.
-No awareness or understanding of cPTSD/chronic trauma and its consequences.
This was especially disappointing because the administrator had led me to believe she was a very good and professional doctor.
The worst part: she stated that cutting a tablet in half is always safe—which is absolutely dangerous advice!
I left feedback about her at the clinic. My "diagnosis" for this doctor: professional incompetence.
Will continue my search a bit later on.
#8
Recovery Journals / Re: Living As All of Me
Last post by NarcKiddo - February 01, 2026, 05:02:31 PMI hope the cold goes soon. I hate being ill too - and I hate my plans being scuppered. Best wishes for some healing rest and Frank snuggles.
#9
Recovery Journals / Re: the next step
Last post by Chart - February 01, 2026, 04:22:08 PMMy mornings are usually a labyrinth... I lay listening to the snorted breathing of the Minotaur just the other side of the stone wall.
#10
Recovery Journals / Re: the next step
Last post by TheBigBlue - February 01, 2026, 04:19:20 PMMe too - fortunately I too will see my T tomorrow.