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Other / Re: Psychosis as a result of t...

Last post by Chart - Today at 09:13:10 PM

Great news Teddy bear! Well done with the work and searching and results!
 

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Frustrated? Set Backs? / Re: stuck in a loop

Last post by Chart - Today at 09:07:55 PM

Asdis, Dollyvee put it really well, "I'm sorry, all that is really tough." I second that. Sounds like you are working double shifts with the symptoms and research, all on low energy. I understand the low energy. I'm also struggling with foods, but not allergies, just sugar and carbs. But even that is hard to avoid, so I empathize immensely with your allergy limitations.

It takes a long time to see effects on a deep level, but working with the nervous system and parasympathetic stimulation might be an avenue to explore. I have great faith in Indian and Ayurvedic approaches.

Sending care and support
 

#3

Frustrated? Set Backs? / Re: stuck in a loop

Last post by asdis - Today at 08:11:39 PM

the benefits of not feeling sick that I could distinctly feel, outweighed the foods that I could no longer eat.

If it was just one allergy/intolerance we would feel the same. We did good for a bit at avoiding our allergies and felt a little better, we could notice the difference. It essentially means eating the same five-ten things on repeat indefinitely for us, and that is not sustainable while trying to recover from the ED mindset that food isn't safe and the mindset that food isn't "for" us. Cutting out our allergens blew up our progress in that area once we started actually feeling hungry.

Some of our allergies (like soy) are in absolutely everything and it's not always disclosed, especially in things like chicken/turkey meat. For example, as long as we're careful we can eat chicken, but sometimes we end up with chicken that was soy-fed and then had some form of soy used in it's packaging. The only way around that is a bunch of research and we've been working on it, it's just not a super quick or easy process. Because of PFAS we can't eat or touch raw veggies or fruits. We can't even really eat cooked fruits. We've also stumbled on new allergies while looking for replacement foods and it's cut out even more. It's getting hard to eat because one product being out of stock means we just have less food until it's back. Usually it's a base ingredient or something important to our ability to feed ourself while alone. Our other conditions limit how much we can do in general, our energy is limited and we always have to "choose" what's most important to take care of.

We're just at a point where we need someone to help us tackle this from all the same angles that we have to, and finding someone both willing and capable of that isn't easy. At the very least, we need to find doctors/providers that are willing to work together with each other to help us. We're working on it. It's just taking longer than we can really handle on our own.

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Other / Re: Psychosis as a result of t...

Last post by Armee - Today at 07:51:10 PM

I'm so glad it is going well and you found someone skilled in tapering.

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Other / Re: Psychosis as a result of t...

Last post by Teddy bear - Today at 07:14:58 PM

Hey everyone,

An update on my situation: luckily, I was able to find a therapist in my area who was educated and trained abroad (as I mentioned previously, psychiatrists here usually only know how to prescribe, not deprescribe). She follows the hyperbolic tapering protocol, which is the safest method for psychotropic drugs.

So, hopefully, I'll be able to get off that neuroleptic.

She also has experience with cPTSD and dissociation.

It all sounds very promising. I'm looking forward to my appointment (I'm currently on a waiting list)

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General Discussion / Re: Psychosis from extreme dis...

Last post by Teddy bear - Today at 06:49:50 PM

Oh yeah, reviving old threads is a good idea. There's lots of really useful info and experience in old threads. I just didn't want you to be disappointed when OP doesn't respond.

That's really nice of you 🤗

I guess there's a chance others might join the discussion too — that'd be great!

#7

Symptoms - Other / Re: Schrodingers jealousy

Last post by Chart - Today at 06:04:47 PM

Thank you NarcKiddo, this highlights for me something my mother did ALL THE TIME: Telling me how I felt. And not only was it simply a reflection of how SHE felt, it was done so insidiously that it took me decades to figure it out. The most common situation was simply to "mirror" something that wasn't there. I think almost exactly like your mom did. Mine would make statements about things and how it was "alright" to feel ashamed, or cry, or whatever. But rarely was there any place for me to express what exactly I was feeling. I think it's possible to simply not feel things because we were never given the opportunity to have the breathing space to explore and find out on our own what exactly we were feeling. Indeed, it is a quantum problem, both there and not there at the same moment in time. :-)

#8

Recovery Journals / Re: Dalloway´s Recovery Journa...

Last post by Chart - Today at 04:34:55 PM

Hey Dalloway... yeah, I feel your sadness. It's such an integral part of Cptsd. The hopelessness had me firmly in its grasp this week. It's ebbed a little, but once more the reminder just how much this sucks. I loved your image of lilies... please know it's ok to float. There is no hollywood muscled hero who beats back Cptsd. The best most of the world can do is deny and dissociate. You're not doing that. The sadness is recognition, what the child needs to crawl out from beneath the bed. Do whatever you need now, Dalloway. Take the emptiness and make it sympathy for the one you were who faced that infinite injustice. You can't change the past, but you are no longer alone, here, now, in the present. I see you and validate your feelings. Dive as deep as you need, but know: love awaits you at the surface when you re-emerge, love in the form of beautiful lilies floating on all that sadness.
 

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Recovery Journals / Re: the next step

Last post by NarcKiddo - Today at 03:17:00 PM

Well done, San. I'm sorry you had to drop her but best it was done quickly once it was clear to you things were not going to work.

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Other / Re: Our Healing Porch Part 8

Last post by Gromit - Today at 03:01:49 PM

I thought I would check in whilst I drink my tea.