I fairly recently started an exercise group which is on twice a week. It's a league, so we are all members. I have been through a long period of depression including serious suicide thoughts although this is currently not as intense.
I find it really hard to 'be myself' or connect to many of the people there. There are a couple of people who are easier to talk to. I also struggle zoning out and tear up a lot and generally I think it is pretty obvious people think somethings not right or that I'm weird or have mental health problems. They go out to the pub after class once a week and although I want to go or at least feel I should go I would struggle with the noise and open spaces, feeling I'm going to freeze up and end up feeling even worse.
I feel when people pick partners or pair up etc no one wants to go with me or this is my perception. New people have started and they seem to have connected straight away. When we have to speak to give instructions or in the circle I am so quiet and worry I come across like I'm immature or shy which I'm not. It makes me feel dreadful like I'm never going to have a fulfilling life.
Does anyone else have this issue?
I find it really hard to 'be myself' or connect to many of the people there. There are a couple of people who are easier to talk to. I also struggle zoning out and tear up a lot and generally I think it is pretty obvious people think somethings not right or that I'm weird or have mental health problems. They go out to the pub after class once a week and although I want to go or at least feel I should go I would struggle with the noise and open spaces, feeling I'm going to freeze up and end up feeling even worse.
I feel when people pick partners or pair up etc no one wants to go with me or this is my perception. New people have started and they seem to have connected straight away. When we have to speak to give instructions or in the circle I am so quiet and worry I come across like I'm immature or shy which I'm not. It makes me feel dreadful like I'm never going to have a fulfilling life.
Does anyone else have this issue?