Chart,
I truly believe we are all in this together. I sometimes ask myself if it's a good or bad thing that I share my experiences with such detail to the entire world through my novels and this forum.
Feeling alone is what damaged me. My Complex PTSD is deeply rooted in feeling like the world was made up of two teams: Me on one team, and the entire population of earth on the other. I felt unwanted, disrespected, unworthy of love, and even that God himself hated me. That's the root of my pain.
To overshare is an impulse I can't hold back. I spent too many years hiding my life from the world. I can't bear keeping it all inside anymore. And when I am told that my sharing helped another soul, well that just proves to me, beyond the shadow of a doubt, that I am not alone. I can connect with others. And the connection itself is what matters.
We don't have to give each other advice if we don't feel like we can or should. Just acknowledging and validating each other is where the true healing happens in my own journey. I call my healing The Journey of a Thousand Steps. Each step matters as much as the other 999. And each relationship builds on the learning.
Even in a catastrophic event, having someone to share it with gives us the strength to grow and endure.
Chart, I hope you are able to get up out of bed today. A lot of people read your posts, and mine too. Most of them don't respond, and that's okay. I read a lot of posts that I also don't respond to, but I still learn from them. I learn from the people on this forum, and I try to give back with what I've learned. I think most of us do that.
Just know that you are influencing healing in your peers as you share it with us. And so am I. The fact that we don't know who is being affected, doesn't change the fact that others are affected by what we each do, whether we do good or not good. The butterfly affect is in play within us all. When pain or healing touches one of us, a ripple runs through all of us. You pull an apple off a tree, and other apples fall from the other side because the entire tree shook.
I can say that my daughter-in-law's grandmothers request that I officiate Bruce's funeral surprised me and made me realize that I never realized how much I meant to these people. It is also a learning lesson for me to be at my best anytime I'm interacting with anyone, because none of us truly know who we are influencing in either good or not so good ways. To each of us, our actions are watched by others. We don't always realize that we teach when we're just being who we are.
This forum, to me, is more of a team than a grouping. We help each other by sharing. We leverage eachothers' strengths for the good of all of us. WE are all focused on similar goals. We want to feel connected. We want to feel validated. We want to feel like we're not the only person on our team. And by sharing, we are all helping each other.
I'm pulling for you!
I truly believe we are all in this together. I sometimes ask myself if it's a good or bad thing that I share my experiences with such detail to the entire world through my novels and this forum.
Feeling alone is what damaged me. My Complex PTSD is deeply rooted in feeling like the world was made up of two teams: Me on one team, and the entire population of earth on the other. I felt unwanted, disrespected, unworthy of love, and even that God himself hated me. That's the root of my pain.
To overshare is an impulse I can't hold back. I spent too many years hiding my life from the world. I can't bear keeping it all inside anymore. And when I am told that my sharing helped another soul, well that just proves to me, beyond the shadow of a doubt, that I am not alone. I can connect with others. And the connection itself is what matters.
We don't have to give each other advice if we don't feel like we can or should. Just acknowledging and validating each other is where the true healing happens in my own journey. I call my healing The Journey of a Thousand Steps. Each step matters as much as the other 999. And each relationship builds on the learning.
Even in a catastrophic event, having someone to share it with gives us the strength to grow and endure.
Chart, I hope you are able to get up out of bed today. A lot of people read your posts, and mine too. Most of them don't respond, and that's okay. I read a lot of posts that I also don't respond to, but I still learn from them. I learn from the people on this forum, and I try to give back with what I've learned. I think most of us do that.
Just know that you are influencing healing in your peers as you share it with us. And so am I. The fact that we don't know who is being affected, doesn't change the fact that others are affected by what we each do, whether we do good or not good. The butterfly affect is in play within us all. When pain or healing touches one of us, a ripple runs through all of us. You pull an apple off a tree, and other apples fall from the other side because the entire tree shook.
I can say that my daughter-in-law's grandmothers request that I officiate Bruce's funeral surprised me and made me realize that I never realized how much I meant to these people. It is also a learning lesson for me to be at my best anytime I'm interacting with anyone, because none of us truly know who we are influencing in either good or not so good ways. To each of us, our actions are watched by others. We don't always realize that we teach when we're just being who we are.
This forum, to me, is more of a team than a grouping. We help each other by sharing. We leverage eachothers' strengths for the good of all of us. WE are all focused on similar goals. We want to feel connected. We want to feel validated. We want to feel like we're not the only person on our team. And by sharing, we are all helping each other.
I'm pulling for you!