I don't know how to copy a part of a comment yet but I would like to thank Slim for the line on how could they do that to those little growing brains and it being symptoms not who we are.
Its all most impossible at this point for me to separate how I have been taught to treat myself by those who were supposed to be nurturing and supportive, because I know they were capable of being supportive and loving seeing my brother receiving such favorable attention. So its tough to think anything different than I am just human trash meant to serve with a smile saying nothing about the atrocious horrors I was or am suffering with.
I don't know how to turn off the churning pain in my brain I hate it I wish I could erase my memory and start again...
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