So I'm not sure if this is where I should post this but as it relates to a major flashback last Friday I thought I would place it here.
TRIGGER WARNING
So on Friday I was intimate with my partner and everything was going really well until I had a major flashback and then all I could see was my ex (rapist) instead of my partner.
I am trying to work out why I had such a bad flashback and why the aftermath has been really difficult, I'm wondering if it's the counselling as it's bringing things to the surface or could it be related to my partner trying new things between us like new positions, could I subconsciously not feel safe as it's not the norm?
I would talk to my partner about what I'm thinking but I don't want him thinking he is to blame.
I think I might explore this more in counselling but I have to wait until next week so thought I would ask others what they think.
TRIGGER WARNING
So on Friday I was intimate with my partner and everything was going really well until I had a major flashback and then all I could see was my ex (rapist) instead of my partner.
I am trying to work out why I had such a bad flashback and why the aftermath has been really difficult, I'm wondering if it's the counselling as it's bringing things to the surface or could it be related to my partner trying new things between us like new positions, could I subconsciously not feel safe as it's not the norm?
I would talk to my partner about what I'm thinking but I don't want him thinking he is to blame.
I think I might explore this more in counselling but I have to wait until next week so thought I would ask others what they think.