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As a person new to this forum, this post has rendered me very reticent to continue to engage with it any further.

Thanks so very much for posting this honest statement!  These kinds of advance warnings are most welcome, especially for someone whose symptoms of CPTSD are as severe as mine.  I will accordingly not reach out to this forum for assistance.

Thanks so much to everyone who took the time to reply so promptly, especially Cory, whose CPTSD symptoms were also late-onset.

  I love this icon, because it so accurately represents what happened to me that let to my own breakdown -- one brick after another falling, falling, falling on top of me until I was crushed.  What is more the bricks fall relatively rapidly, which is also true to the circumstances that led to me breaking down as I did. 

I am a tenured professor who had sailed through the tenure-review process and had really been enjoying her job for nine years until she experienced the semester from * of the Spring of 2018 -- serving on three demanding committees, dealing with especially difficult students with precious little support from the administrations, etc., etc., etc.

Hello, Y'all.  I am new to this forum, having registered yesterday on my 61st birthday.

It was a pretty good day with perfect weather and I did a number of things to treat myself and celebrate.

But today I woke up feeling really defeated.  I am thinking that perhaps I need a bit of a break from all of the work I've been having to do just in order to survive -- Workers' Compensation Appeal, Disability Extension, Malpractice complaint against an incredibly incompetent psychiatrist who psychologically abused me instead of helped me, which thus far has not been resolved fairly at all, etc., etc.

Is there anyone else in this forum who came down with CPTSD late in life on account of cumulative work-related stress?  I did suffer from some child abuse but not enough to cause CPTSD, only some neuroses which I had long had successfully treated.

The symptoms of CPTSD were entirely new to me when I landed in the hospital on March 24th, 2018.  Recovery has been extremely slow, in large part because of the family abuse to which I've been subjected on account of no longer being able to work, abuse from a bank that discriminated against me on account of my illness, abuse from a few neighbors who have striven to get me evicted from my apartment, abuse from my employer, and abuse from the psychiatrist mentioned above.  In my experience, the illness itself generates new problems in one's life that one didn't have before.

On the other hand, there have indeed been some competent doctors and a psychiatrist who have helped me at least get Disability, at least, thus far, for about five months.  My much reduced financial circumstances are also, needless to say, a source of stress.  Thank God I do have a small amount of savings.