I've got 5 mos sober. One thing I realized was that if I did drink, the next day I felt the most CRUSHING anxiety, dread and hopelessness! It was like my CPTSD was x 10. That is often what stops me. Just the thought of the next day's emotional torture, it really just isn't worth it anymore. Much love to you! Hang in there!!! Remember that acceptance is the key to your circumstances in the moment. I try really hard to stay in, or pull myself back into the present moment and try to not live in the future or the past. Be KIND to yourself, you have been through a lot and made it this far! We survivors are so much stronger than we often give ourselves credit for! Anything you can do for self care is so valuable
