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Thanks NarcKiddo, I'll look it up.

Thank you Hope67 and Blueberry - and yes it did make perfect sense Blueberry and was helpful     Yes, I guess that could explain it a little Hope67, but I'm not sure it completely 'fits' so to speak.  If it was a little bit here and there that was missing throughout the night, but I still had general memory of it, I think that would make sense (like you may remember bits of your drive to work but not others).  But the fact that it's a whole chunk, it just seems so weird.  And yes, very unsettling.  Good thought though.  Thank you

Hi,

So some of you may have read my post back in June (Dissociative Identity Disorder?) about a couple of fragments of missing time.  Well it's happened again, but on a much greater scale.  This time, I'm missing around 1hr - 1hr and half of my life.  And the weird/scary things is that I only know that I'm missing it because I was playing a pool match and I can remember 5 games.  But I know that 9 games are always (and were - I later saw that score card on the group chat) played.  But 4 games are completely missing.  That's literally half the night. I do have a couple of neurological conditions, and I have been to my GP about this as well as contacted my neurology teams who are looking into it.  But their first thoughts are that it isn't neurological.  But how do you just loose an hour of time?  Tbf, I'm not even 100% sure that it hasn't happened before.  As I say, the only reason I knew was because I knew that there should have been 9 matches.  The whole timeline itself seemed totally seamless to me.  And no-one said that I'd acted in any way out of the ordinary.  So idk.  Has anyone any experience with this/any words of wisdom?

Hi,

This post is pretty much summed up in the title.  I'm after anyone from the UK who has some sort of dissociative condition, and just want to know what sort of help they get in their area (and which area this is and is it NHS)?  I'm just curious about what would be the best and the available treatments for this.  If there's anyone living in the South/South East region, then I'd be particularly keen to hear from yourselves.

Also, how did you go about getting a diagnosis in the first place?  I have a dx of EUPD (or as one psychiatrist said to me, CPTSD).  But I don't have a dx of any dissociative conditions.  You may/may not have seen my 2 posts about possible DID and a bad dissociative experience at work (in Symptoms).  So it's playing quite a part in my life.  So it might be good to put a name to it and to get some help on board.  I'm just not sure how.  Thanks,

Thank you Kizzie, I do have a therapist so will chat with them.  Am going to chat with the doctors too on Monday or as soon as I can get in.

Thank you 

Thanks Blueberry

Hey,

So I was at work today and dissociated SO badly.  Like I was scanning documents and I thought that the machine had eaten them!  Not just once - but twice!!  As it happened, I'd completely blanked the time out of me picking up the scanned in documents and putting them on the scanned pile (as I said, twice).  I mean I was so convinced I actually said to my colleagues that the machine had just eaten the paper, before realising how absurd that was and that I must have dissociated.  And now it's left me wondering just how often does something like that happen?  I mean I know I dissociate fairly regularly (like daily), but to this extent I was not aware.  I didn't think it was quite this bad anymore.  It's really got me worried.  I don't know how I can do my job or indeed most jobs when I dissociate like that just randomly.  Does anyone have any insight?  Thanks,

 

Sorry for the late response - just to say thank you for the replies.  They're really helpful

Oh okay, thank you, I'll take a look at that.  Yes, I don't think I'd refer to myself in the plural even if it did turn out to be DID.  I don't know if I'd want an official diagnosis.  It might be good to know for sure one way or the other.  But I guess they don't really know anyway - it's not like a physical condition where you can take an x-ray or do a blood test.  It's much more subjective.  I too would say I'm pretty high functioning given everything.  And I do see it as my minds way of protecting me, that it was doing it's best, and I wouldn't have survived without it.  It's just not easy and slightly confusing.

Thanks Armee.  I think it's just been a bit of a shock I guess to get my head around.

Hi NarcKiddo,

Thanks for the reply.  It's definitely genuine.  The company has reimbursed me.  I went through my bank and they dealt with them.  So it isn't a scam.  But I understand that there's loads out there.  That was my first reaction tbh.

Thank you

Hi,

I'm really struggling at the moment.  Something came up that I cannot explain.  It seems some insurance was taken out using my details that I didn't take out and do not require (and have no recollect of taking out).  I don't own the thing that the insurance is for, so it would be totally obselete to me.  So either someone has scammed my details and done this - that's entirely possible, but I'm not sure who'd benefit very much tbh, or I've done it for some random reason but do not remember.  And it's completely thrown me as if it is me I just have no recollection of this at all and no understanding of why I'd have done it.  I always thought DID was a possibility as I have this 'identity' where I'll just become this extremely angry monster - just like a verbal explosion / verbal vomit will come tumbelling out of my mouth.  But it's not something I'm in control over, it just happens.  And I don't remember anything of what I've said after the event.  I'm just aware that it's happened.  But this is different - and frightening.  I really hope it was someone that scammed my details (sounds like a weird thing to say but... lol), but I guess I'll never know.  Does anyone have any experience with DID / can anyone relate?