Hello! I'm new to this website and a bit drowsy on pain meds from getting my wisdom teeth removed, so I'm going to apologize immediately if I'm doing anything wrong! I just have a curious question about dissociation.
You see, I've read a lot about dissociation- particularly depersonalization and derealization- because I worry that I suffer from small episodes of these. In particular, depersonalization almost as an emotional flashback, as I used to depersonalize/cut off my emotions during the time I was abused (then again, I can't quite remember much of that time). My question is about derealization, though.
Sometimes when I feel like I'm derealizing, it's not so much like everything is a "dream" or "movie" type of false-world, but more like a video game. In particular, I'm prone to feeling like the world is the last game I have played, especially if I have played it for a long time. The Sims is a good example of this: I seem to "see" the world from a 3rd person perspective in my mind, and "see"/feel the HUD of the game. My movements even adapt somewhat to the style of how the sims move- a bit more exaggerated and more avoidant of small things in my way. I even think in the actions the Sims can complete, and "see" the moodlets that appear from this. It's happened with other games as well, such as Mass Effect and Skyrim. I'm curious to know if anyone has had any similar experiences, and if this is actually derealization. Thoughts?
You see, I've read a lot about dissociation- particularly depersonalization and derealization- because I worry that I suffer from small episodes of these. In particular, depersonalization almost as an emotional flashback, as I used to depersonalize/cut off my emotions during the time I was abused (then again, I can't quite remember much of that time). My question is about derealization, though.
Sometimes when I feel like I'm derealizing, it's not so much like everything is a "dream" or "movie" type of false-world, but more like a video game. In particular, I'm prone to feeling like the world is the last game I have played, especially if I have played it for a long time. The Sims is a good example of this: I seem to "see" the world from a 3rd person perspective in my mind, and "see"/feel the HUD of the game. My movements even adapt somewhat to the style of how the sims move- a bit more exaggerated and more avoidant of small things in my way. I even think in the actions the Sims can complete, and "see" the moodlets that appear from this. It's happened with other games as well, such as Mass Effect and Skyrim. I'm curious to know if anyone has had any similar experiences, and if this is actually derealization. Thoughts?