Just Saying Hello

Started by kbeckett21, March 30, 2017, 12:30:34 AM

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kbeckett21

Hi I'm Beckett and I finally know what to call what I have.

I've been suffering from emotional flashbacks and disassociation for about two years now. The flashbacks are always related to the bullying that happened to me all through out middle school.  I always blamed the flashes on my photographic memory just messing with me but I've started to notice that these flashbacks occur when I see or speak to individuals from that time period or when the type of bullying that happened to me is mentioned. Suddenly, I find myself trapped inside my own mind, blinded by the bottled up emotions from the past that I suppressed in a failed attempt to protect myself. It doesn't help that I see these individuals on a regular basis. While the abuse has ended, the memories haven't and they haunt me every day.

I am ready to get better and move on from what happened to me. I think this is the first step in many future steps for closure and healing. It's going to be a long, difficult road, but I know I need to do this. I can't let this define me anymore and control my life.

Sincerely,
Beckett

Three Roses

Hello and welcome, Beckett!

QuoteI am ready to get better and move on from what happened to me. I think this is the first step in many future steps for closure and healing. It's going to be a long, difficult road, but I know I need to do this. I can't let this define me anymore and control my life.

I like this statement! It's good that you realize you have to deal with it all - the sooner, the quicker.  ;)

Thanks for joining. :wave:


Kizzie

Hi and a warm welcome Beckett   :heythere:   It's can be a relief to finally be able to name what's going on, but also a bit daunting/frightening too - there's that road to recovery stretching out ahead and it seems like a long trek. Most of us just want to be done with this disorder already, but many of us find we need to take baby steps at least at first, and give ourselves a whole lot of self-care and compassion.  :hug:

Three Roses

Woops! As usual I wasn't very clear... what I mean is, I'm happy you see that it needs to be taken care of, and starting on it now means you'll be ahead in the long run. But it is very important that you take your time, and move at your own pace.

I waited until I was in my mid 50's to start addressing my childhood. I guess I thought everyone was right - just don't think about the past & you'll get over it! :rofl:

ricepen22

Hi

Glad you are here, I am new here too, but it seems like the write place :)

Would ti-che or a similar thing help? I have been told learning a fighting discipline (I am NOT condoning violence) gives you confidence in your ability to protect yourself, while teaching you how to be calm in a stressful and potentially volatile situation. I think you would need to vet the discipline and the class you wish to attend.

Good luck with your journey