"I'll give you something to cry about" *HEAVY trigger warning*

[GoSlash27]

 All, trigger warning. Do not highlight the text unless you are in a good place.
 I have been mulling over what was most psychologically damaging during my first experience of abuse, which required rehab to relearn how to engage with my environment and speak. The interminable months locked or trapped in a stifling room with no human interaction, the physical/ emotional abuse, the neglect, or the abandonment.
 I have landed on the physical abuse. Not just being beaten into mere "compliance" or "obedience", but beaten into *silence*. Beaten into fear of making any sound whatsoever. The only way to avoid that punishment amidst all of the other factors is to just shut down completely and dissociate; go catatonic and just... sit there. Silent, listless, unaware. For months. It's the last ditch effort to survive.
 My apologies if this is in the wrong place. I didn't know where else to put it.

 Best,
-Slashy   

[sanmagic7]

my heart goes out to you, slash. here's a gentle hug, if that's ok.