Activating myself

[Blueberry]

Activating myself is difficult when I don't feel any intrinsic motivation.

I finally listened to one of the Tapping Things in the 10 day tapping course I linked somewhere on the forum. The ninth day is coming to an end, but better late than never...
Anyway the topic today was motivation, or lack thereof, and the lack meaning that something's blocked rather than that you can pull the motivation out of a hat. It was useful in showing me what my big blockage is atm. Not that I have got on with dealing with it, maybe tomorrow... (1) It's communicating with somebody, where the communication is going to be a little difficult.

It also showed me what little job I could be doing that might actually help a bit with motivation - that would be going outside and doing some clean-up - there is grit from winter to sweep up, some bits of lawn and under-trees need to be raked. Well, I suppose I mean the tapping showed me that this particular job or even parts of it could be fun / slightly enjoyable as opposed to all sorts of other things I think I 'should' be doing which I cognitively classify as more important like cleaning up in the kitchen. But I've been putting of the latter for days and days, so yeah, while the weather's nice and sunny for me it would make sense to allow myself to do some garden clear-up instead of apartment clear-up. A couple of days ago in OT I was finger-painting because that helps when things get stuck and one of the first sentences to burst out of me was: "I don't want to clean!" So why try and force myself?? Much more sensible to (2) do some garden work and then see.

And (3), even more low-hanging fruit - at least get out of bed in the morning and stay up. Even if I then come onto the computer. Tomorrow is another day of tapping, I can write here on OOTS (more easily than on smartphone in bed), start with the communication under (1), it's easier to go into garden if I'm already up etc etc.

[sanmagic7]

blueberry, i love the idea of doing some cleaning up in the garden.  the weather for doing that isn't always going to be ideal, whereas, indoor chores have no weather circumstances to worry about.  they'll be there, waiting, but good weather won't necessarily be so.  isn't there a phrase 'make hay while the sun shines'? 

as far as communicating w/ someone, may i just reiterate that your activation stance has been staying w/ me.  it was too cold to walk outside this morning, so i walked up and down hallways and stairs instead for a few hundred steps.  nothing big, but it was something. and since you brought 'activation' up, i have done something physical every day. so, thank you again.  love and hugs