The tipping point…

[sanmagic7]

hey, chart, i watched some of what he had to say, but i could feel it getting too close to something primal, so i quit.  too much emotional stuff going on this weekend, can't take any more.  however, it makes sense to me that, and i think a lot of us here have an awareness of this already, that what we went thru as infants/children has shaped how we not only see the world today, but also how we see ourselves in that world.  and our emotions are part of that 'seeing', aren't they?  the type of emotions, the intensity, the physical way we express them - i think it's all in there, has all been shaped by what went on w/ us and the others in our lives from birth onward.  possibly before birth as well.

at any rate, good stuff.  thanks for sharing.  love and hugs

[Chart]

Thanks SO and San!!!


Well, if dysregulation indicates "not broken" I'm as whole as an apple tonight. Just sitting here with my pain. Breathing, trying to not push it away or dissociate. It's really hard... but you know that already. I'm trying to read and visit around the Forum. That's hard too. Finding that I want to reply, in fact have things I'd like to contribute... but I feel fake and false and empty and, and all that crap... Even the duck video didn't help me. You know your in the dung when even the duck video fails to bring any light into the gloom...
 

[TheBigBlue]

Chart, I hear you. Sitting with pain without dissociating or pushing it away is brutally hard work, even when it doesn't feel like work at all. Feeling empty, fake, or unable to respond doesn't mean you are those things though. It often just means you are right in the middle of it.

Thank you for the Schore video. For me too, understanding what is happening in the nervous system can sometimes create just enough steadiness to stay present.

Even if the duck video failed tonight 🦆💛, you're still here, and we are staying with you; and that counts more than it feels like right now.

[Chart]

Thankyou TheBigBlue!

[dollyvee]

Hey Chart,

I hope Schore's work is able to help you find some space in what you're going through.

Sending you support,
dolly

[SenseOrgan]

I'm sorry Chart. I hate to see you suffer. Actually feeling is a big part of healing, in my experience. But "dosing" that, if at all possible, is important too. Ideally, this shouldn't be a tooth gritting thing, I don't think. More like a gradual opening up, where compassion is leading. You're not alone with this. I hope a sense of connection reaches that desperate place. It takes a village to reparent an age regressed adult. Stay in touch. Much love.