Emotional neglect. Possibly tw's?

[Ran]

Since I was very young I have always had trouble with health as my immune system was very weak. The moment I touched water I catched a cold and coughed a lot. Due to that I spent most of my time in hospitals by myself as my mom needed to take care of our home/my sister and dad worked long hours as a bus driver. Neither were very attentive at home either. I remember being alone a lot.

In hospitals I've met kind staff there and not so kind staff. I'm not sure if that memory is real, but I distinctly remember a doctor telling me that I won't live past 18 years of life and I started living despite, because I'm very much a rebel. I'm 34 now, who exactly don't live past 18? This is what my mind thinks. I though have memories I not sure are real and there are stuff I don't simply remember. I once saw a flashback, but again I don't know if it's real. There seems to be something blocked.
At home my enviroment was unsafe. I remember being to the markets with my family and I think I saw a small teddy bear one vendor was selling and wanted it, but my parents said no (we weren't rich), and I think I felt incredibly sad and I think the vendor took pity on me and gave it to me just like that for free. She problably saw how much I liked it and it became a comfort object. They really help with anxiety too. I have now a little white soft polar bear plushie to help me out. I don't think I need to drag the story out as that's the most of it that belongs under this thread.

[Kizzie]

It's amazing what a little kindness will do for us. Basically we are starving for it as your post highlights. I am sorry you didn't have anyone in your corner. Here we all get it so you have a community now     

[Ran]

It's amazing what a little kindness will do for us. Basically we are starving for it as your post highlights. I am sorry you didn't have anyone in your corner. Here we all get it so you have a community now     

  Eventually as an adult I realized it. This is why I'm here as hopefully others get it who deal with this, because I feel always so misunderstood by others.