Dissociative Identity Disorder?

[Forestmistheather]

Hi,

I'm really struggling at the moment.  Something came up that I cannot explain.  It seems some insurance was taken out using my details that I didn't take out and do not require (and have no recollect of taking out).  I don't own the thing that the insurance is for, so it would be totally obselete to me.  So either someone has scammed my details and done this - that's entirely possible, but I'm not sure who'd benefit very much tbh, or I've done it for some random reason but do not remember.  And it's completely thrown me as if it is me I just have no recollection of this at all and no understanding of why I'd have done it.  I always thought DID was a possibility as I have this 'identity' where I'll just become this extremely angry monster - just like a verbal explosion / verbal vomit will come tumbelling out of my mouth.  But it's not something I'm in control over, it just happens.  And I don't remember anything of what I've said after the event.  I'm just aware that it's happened.  But this is different - and frightening.  I really hope it was someone that scammed my details (sounds like a weird thing to say but... lol), but I guess I'll never know.  Does anyone have any experience with DID / can anyone relate?

[Blueberry]

I'm sorry you're experiencing this. That kind of thing freaks me out.
I don't have DID tho maybe partial DID or something along that spectrum. Therapists still not sure. There are some members of the forum with DID, who write about it occasionally. I tend to get all confused when I start writing about what it is exactly, so hoping somebody else gets back to you.

There are some posts about DID and semi-similar diagnoses on that spectrum like OSDD here https://www.cptsd.org/forum/index.php?board=238.0

[Forestmistheather]

Thank you

[NarcKiddo]

That does sound concerning. However, I would urge you to be sure that the insurance was actually taken out before you allow this situation to add to your concerns about possible DID. I only make the suggestion because I am plagued by scam calls and some of them suggest I have taken out insurance policies that require renewal. These policies do not exist. The scammer is trying to get me to "renew" and thus give them my payment card information.

[Forestmistheather]

Hi NarcKiddo,

Thanks for the reply.  It's definitely genuine.  The company has reimbursed me.  I went through my bank and they dealt with them.  So it isn't a scam.  But I understand that there's loads out there.  That was my first reaction tbh.

[Armee]

It would fit with DID but there are also lots of other explanations too. 

DID isn't as weird or scary as it sounds. Trauma does suck though.

[Forestmistheather]

Thanks Armee.  I think it's just been a bit of a shock I guess to get my head around.

[Armee]

It is. A shock. For sure. But if that is what you are dealing with, or something less severe than DID...either way all this stuff was a really healthy way for our minds to cope with what was happening. I know I am fairly high functioning even with severe symptoms and if I didn't have the dissociative capacity I would have been an absolute mess. Eventually you'll come to see what a gift it was. I've never been handed an official diagnosis and have never asked for one by the way. I suspect it is DID, at a minimum severe OSDD. But I'm not crazy and I don't even refer to myself in the plural.

I haven't read the book but another forum member has mentioned it...called Dissociation Made Simple.

[Forestmistheather]

Oh okay, thank you, I'll take a look at that.  Yes, I don't think I'd refer to myself in the plural even if it did turn out to be DID.  I don't know if I'd want an official diagnosis.  It might be good to know for sure one way or the other.  But I guess they don't really know anyway - it's not like a physical condition where you can take an x-ray or do a blood test.  It's much more subjective.  I too would say I'm pretty high functioning given everything.  And I do see it as my minds way of protecting me, that it was doing it's best, and I wouldn't have survived without it.  It's just not easy and slightly confusing.

[Kizzie]

We do have some members who believe they suffer from DID and do refer to themselves in the plural here. We need to acknowledge that for some of us, DID is more severe and those members need a safe space to speak openly and honestly about what DID and CPTSD feels like to them, how it impacts their lives, etc. None of us are crazy here, we each had to deal with complex trauma and survived as best we could. So please let's all ensure OOTS is a safe space for all. 

OSDD: OSDD stands for Other Specified Dissociative Disorder. It's a category within the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders (DSM-5), which is used by mental health professionals to diagnose conditions. Specifically, OSDD is used to describe a dissociative disorder when the individual's symptoms meet the criteria for a dissociative disorder but do not meet the full criteria for a more specific diagnosis like Dissociative Identity Disorder (DID).

DID: "DID" is an abbreviation for Dissociative Identity Disorder, a mental health condition formerly known as Multiple Personality Disorder. It involves the presence of two or more distinct personality states (identities) that take control of a person's behavior at different times. These identities can have different behaviors, memories, thought patterns, and expressions.

[Armee]

Thanks for the clarification Kizzie and I apologize for speaking too casually about this. I am 99% certain I have DID. I meant that to be reassuring to the OP because there are a lot of misconceptions and stereotypes about people with DID and I know from experience how terrifying and unsettling it can be to confront that diagnosis. For many years I did feel like having DID might mean I was or would be viewed as "crazy." I was only trying to say having DID doesn't mean you are crazy and it isn't something scary once you get past the stereotypes and its a really protectice and adaptive response to trauma.

I will be more careful with my words. Especially on this topic. I was also only trying to say you can have DID and not feel like you are plural or refer to yourself as plural but the phenomena and switching and amnesia can all still be there. I said that because on the internet it can feel like only people who refer to themselves as plural have DID but it can present different from that too. Again apologies for using cavalier language and for possibly insulting or hurting someone else. 

[Kizzie]

Tks for clarifying Armee