I Am

[Hope67]

Hi Bach,
Even noticing that good feels unsafe is a step toward understanding yourself, and maybe it's ok to let good feelings arrive in small doses, so they don't feel overwhelming.  I don't know.  But I'm sorry that you didn't sleep well last night and that you're feeling low as can be today.  Sending you a hug of support, although a very gentle one, as I know you're experiencing hurt today.   

[NarcKiddo]

  You're doing so well in not allowing it to discourage you. Hope you feel better soon.

[Bach]

Optimism very much feels unsafe.  Optimism triggers impatience, which gives me the exact same bodily sensation as fear does, a sort of jolting twanging clench in my lower gut.  What a familiar feeling that is that clench, caused by all manner of things, but most problematically, caused by feelings of hope and positivity.