What's in a Name - Part 3

[Jack Evans]

Thank you both for your replies. I would be happy to introduce myself in the new member section. This feels like a good space.

[Marcine]

Amazing back stories here for everyone's names!
I chose Marcine because it is the name of one of my ancestors, 5 generations back, who emigrated from Hamburg to Quebec in 1863. She got on a sailboat with her elderly parents, husband and their 3 month old daughter for what surely was a harrowing trip across the North Atlantic.
The family originally lived in West Prussia/Poland and settled in central Wisconsin.
I only found this family history out very recently through my own research. No one ever talked to me about this remarkable, ancestral courage.
Shame was the muzzle.
So choosing this name connects me to Marcine's courage to make a better life for herself and her parents and infant. Without that choice, I probably wouldn't be here today.

[pseudonym]

I'm paranoid. I don't want the things I say here to be easily linked to me, both because I don't want to give people the opportunity to weaponize it against me, and because I don't want that worry to keep me from opening up here.

[polkadottedtiger]

I chose my username because I love cats (large and small). I feel my inner tigress.
But I am also a bit odd and usually feel I don't quite fit in, like a tiger with polkadots instead of stripes. Silly and unique!

[Teddy bear]

Hi,
It's very comforting for me to think about a toy from a childhood and to identify with it, and also almost anthropomorphism for me ☺️🧸

[highimpedance]

I picked highimpedance because it's an audio term that reminds me of old sound systems with quater inch inputs that are a bit more sensitive, noiser, and easier to overload and blow if you push them too hard... but they can work beautifully when matched correctly with the right amp, warmed up, and pushed with a little patience and delicacy. Music is my passion and my best coping tool; that analog reference always resonated with me because it's similar to the way my nervous system works. With a little bit of care and grounding i can keep going.

[ArcticSundog]

Google describes a sundog as "bright, often colorful spots of light that appear on either side of the sun, often resembling extra suns or detached pieces of rainbow, with red closest to the sun and blue on the outside".

ArcticSundog is a nod to where I grew up and then I included sundog for a couple of reasons. I've always thought sundogs were beautiful but recently when I've thought fo them I've been reminded of masking. Something I've done extensively all my life. I think it's the idea that the false suns being visible can distract attention from the true sun.

The second reason is because some cultures view a sundog as a sign of hope and purpose. I thought including the reference might remind of why I joined the group. This might be helpful on tougher days when I'm feeling overwhelmed and hopeless.

[Teddy bear]

Google describes a sundog as "bright, often colorful spots of light that appear on either side of the sun, often resembling extra suns or detached pieces of rainbow, with red closest to the sun and blue on the outside".

ArcticSundog is a nod to where I grew up and then I included sundog for a couple of reasons. I've always thought sundogs were beautiful but recently when I've thought fo them I've been reminded of masking. Something I've done extensively all my life. I think it's the idea that the false suns being visible can distract attention from the true sun.

The second reason is because some cultures view a sundog as a sign of hope and purpose. I thought including the reference might remind of why I joined the group. This might be helpful on tougher days when I'm feeling overwhelmed and hopeless.

Hi ArcticSundog, wow! I like your nickname
I saw a halo two years ago in the blistering cold at about -30C. Normally we don't have it here though.

[SenseOrgan]

Quite a few years ago, I made my final attempt to prevent myself from ending my life. I had several experiences with ayahuasca. I owe my life to that, and to the people who were willing to serve it to me. What happened defies words and logic. A profound shift in my sense of identity took place. It wasn't what I was looking for. But it was exactly what I needed. The years that followed were confusing, to say the least. I looked around for clues for where to go from here. One of the shows I ended up listening to was Buddha at the Gas Pump. The host, Rick Archer, sometimes referred to a friend who said he was a sense organ of the infinite [as everyone else]. That resonated with me. This is where my alias comes from. It's multilayered, but I'll leave the rest up to everyone's imagination.

[Desert Flower]

Quite a few years ago, I made my final attempt to prevent myself from ending my life. I had several experiences with ayahuasca. I owe my life to that, and to the people who were willing to serve it to me. What happened defies words and logic. A profound shift in my sense of identity took place. It wasn't what I was looking for. But it was exactly what I needed. The years that followed were confusing, to say the least. I looked around for clues to where to go from here. One of the shows I ended up listening to was Buddha at the Gas Pump. The host, Rick Archer, sometimes referred to a friend who said he was a sense organ of the infinite [as everyone else]. That resonated with me. This is where my alias comes from. It's multilayered, but I'll leave the rest up to everyone's imagination.

I had been wondering SenseOrgan, about your name, and I love it!

[SenseOrgan]

I had been wondering SenseOrgan, about your name, and I love it!

I had been wondering SenseOrgan, about your name, and I love it!

 

[SenseOrgan]

ancestral courage

Amazing family history! You made me realize that not only trauma often didn't start with us. Imagine how our personal "choices" affect so many lives. Not only our own children if we have them. We're all connected.

[SenseOrgan]

Okay, I'm new here and I'm finding it really difficult to introduce myself somehow. Well, I never was supposed to speak about any of this of course. So, I'll start with 'what's in an name?'. I chose Desert Flower because I'm trying to blossom while I grew up in such a barren place. I just need a little water every now and then. And I'll be fine hopefully. I've been holding back the tears for so long, I can't believe it. Sometimes I just can't believe I'm still here, I'm still standing (sort of). It's been so rough and lonely. I'm just so glad you're here and I'm not alone with this anymore.

I loved it right away when we met  Exactly the association I had with it [very similar to what I so adore about plants growing in abandoned buildings, especially in impossible places]

[SenseOrgan]

I just found this thread and it´s really nice to read all the backstory about our nicknames.  I chose my name because at the time I joined this forum, I was reading Mrs Dalloway by Virginia Woolf. The novel, just as her other ones, resonated with me very much. Woolf´s writing is deeply touching and lyrical. She can express the existential pain her characters are suffering from with only a few words. She became one of my favorite writers and Mrs Dalloway one of my favorite book characters. Also, Virginia Woolf struggled with depression most of her life, which made her stories and characters so heartbreakingly real.

It's interesting that I was 100% certain you had chosen a name from a character in a book. I had no clue which one though. Or did I? I just checked after reading your explanation here, and indeed, it must have lived somewhere deep down in my memory. I went to LA for therapy in 2005. I went to Amoeba Music to buy some CD's for support and ended up buying the soundtrack of a movie that had deeply impressed me. It was the soundtrack for The Hours, composed by Philip Glass.

[SenseOrgan]

we put this name (Asdis) together while researching Old Norse. we then found out it's already an Icelandic name. the first part "Ás" is Old Norse for "god" and "dís" is Old Norse for "goddess". we like the name because we have a very large system and have many different genders within and it's one of the few names that feels like it can encapsulate all of us.

What a great name!