Healing journal (tw) Angering / strong emotions

[NarcKiddo]

I've been catching up with your journal. Sorry about the freezer debacle. That sucks.

I was interested to read about your consideration of what to do with the dog mementoes. Like you, I have photos and memories and feelings of mine. In fact, my husband and I talk about them or refer to them every single day. I kid you not. It's not a maudlin, how much we miss them sort of a way, but more like the attitude to life they had and how much we could learn from it. One was a cheeky little chap up for adventure any time and the other was very staid and particular, demanding that every single day be the same as the day before. Both attitudes have their up and down sides. Everyone's different but despite how they are still very much alive to me there are certain things of theirs I simply cannot part with. Their leads and harnesses hang in their places to this day, some 6 years since they went on ahead. I don't really notice them there any more but I certainly would notice their absence. Anyway, I'm banging on way too much in your journal now.

I'd like to have friends in IRL and at the same time ... I wonder if the trade off is worth it.

This really resonated. I am sorry you have to contend with the issues you mention. There are aspects of that here (UK) but not as much as the media would have us believe. It's very much in pockets. For me the trade off is more about the risk of having maybe some closer human interactions that might not work out so well. But I think your sentiment probably applies to most people on this forum, even if their fears are not about the same thing.

I'm happy to read that you are progressing towards becoming your own best friend. That's so important and a very worthwhile endeavour. It's also really hard for us folks, so it's nice to be able to cheer on a fellow traveller.

[StartingHealing]

Hi NarcKiddo.

In regards to the IRL friends thing .. The native Nation that I'm a member of has an outreach group located in the metropolis where I currently reside.  They are having a IRL meetup this coming weekend.  BBQ, meet and greet some tribal leaders, etc.  Members only thing, which I'm a member.  4 hours long.  I am attending and going to see what happens.   Sometimes just showing up is the biggest thing.  since it's a "private group" thing then my concern about the crazy that currently exists here is not as strong as if it was a event in a public space.

To many instances of folks getting filmed, film is edited, and uploaded because the poster is seeking validation, or something for their echo chamber, or for public roasting and someone's reputation gets smoked for likes and clicks. Usually the males of the species.  With how... I lack the words .. toxic? childish? foolish? stupid?  people are with posting online, about everything.. Nah. I'll pass.  I think that sometime next quarter I will get a body cam of some type.  Any more I'm guilty until I can prove I'm innocent.

As far as the fur people that have gone on before me.  There are many.  A solid bakers dozen.  I'm not trying to "forget" but at the same time, how many mementos you know?  I mean even with a EMP that smokes all electronics that's not going to effect my memories. (Yeah, I have the vids / images digitally, plus two external drives that are exclusive for backups)   That reminds me, need to print out a couple of photos of each, ones that somehow captured the who that they are. 

Got to get back after it.  Work and all

Wishing all here all the best.