Not Alone: 2022

[Not Alone]

Thank you, Rainy Diary.

One of my closest friends is coming today and will be here for a few days. She lives an eight hour drive from me. The Littles and I are so excited! 

[sanmagic7]

and i'm excited for you all.     enjoy enjoy enjoy!!!  love and hugs

[CactusFlower]

hope you have a good time with your dear friend. They can make a lot of difference, can't they? HUGS

[Not Alone]

Thank you San & Sage. We've been having a nice time.

[Blueberry]

 

[Hope67]

Hi Not Alone,
I am so happy to hear you're having a lovely time with your friend.  Love to you and the littles    It's great that you've been having fun and enjoying your time together. 

Hope 

[rainydiary]

 

[Not Alone]

It is strange for me to spend so little time on OOTS. This community has been such a life-line to me. I still feel like I have close friends here, who I'm not able to see as much as I'd like to.

I was off work for awhile, but I'm back now. Even though my job is fairly easy, having to be "on" for almost 40 hours a week takes a lot out of me. By the time I get home, I'm usually pretty tired.

Besides being tiring, having to be adult and be "on" so much also means that the Littles receive less time and care. That's really hard.

While I was off of work, I tried to see my T 2x a week, when possible. Now it's back to once a week. It's really hard, because I leave work, drive to T, then the next morning have to be The Professional. I am still dealing with my trauma, but more challenging to do that with my responsibilities.

My marriage continues to be       . Sometimes it's just too much and I have to take time away from my Littles and the trauma in my therapy session to talk about my marriage.

Since my last journal entry in May, the following has been happening in my life:

*Beautiful spiritual moments with Jesus
*A (mostly) lovely week with my sibilings
*An amazing vacation with a close friend, seeing incredible nature
*Dealing with therapy and trauma
*Relationships with my adult children and with friends
*Difficult marriage with avoidant husband
*Work

Still around, but  ,
Not Alone

[rainydiary]

I appreciate your update Not Alone. 

[CactusFlower]

Thank you for checking in whenever you can. gentle hugs if you want them.

[Blueberry]

Thanks for updating us Not Alone. I'm thankful and also happy for you that there is some good stuff to say like your amazing vacation   But I hear the other too.

[Armee]

 

[Not Alone]

Thank you, Rainy Diary, Sage, Blueberry & Armee.     

It's been a busy week, with something scheduled after work every day. Those have been good things, but it is too much and I'm tired. Allowed myself to sleep in today. Getting things done. Too much to do today. Trying to balance what needs to be done with taking care of myself and being kind to myself. Not easy.

[Bach]

   

[CactusFlower]