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[bungee4132]

Hi. I am new to this board. This is my first attempt at publicly addressing my cptsd.

I am fortunate in that I do have a great support system - family, friends and an amazing therapist that I have seen for more than 5 years - religiously, every two weeks. I am finally accepting that I have PTSD and am seeking EMDR treatment as well as other alternative methods.

Why my cptsd? I was married to a narcissist for 7 years - in a relationship for 10 years. I have been divorced for almost 2 years now after a high conflict divorce (of course - is there any other kind with a NPD?). I have a 7 year old daughter which we share 50/50 custody. And this, I think, is one of the reasons I cannot seem to move beyond my cptsd. Because I have to interact with him on, if not daily, at least weekly basis. Plus, I have to witness my daughter get molded and be subjected to his abuse - which is a trigger all in its own. I call it my ghost marriage. While I limit contact and no longer live with him, he still reaches into my home.

Which is why I am here - to start to tell my story to others in a public, albeit anonymous, forum.

Thanks.

[mourningdove]

Welcome, bungee!

That NPD-ex situation sounds like a nightmare. So sorry you are dealing with that. I'm glad you are here and hope that you find this site useful.  

[Kizzie]

Yes welcome bungee     

There are a lot of us who developed CPTSD from a relationship with someone with a PD so we can understand what it means to be retriggered by having to have contact. Sharing custody is a tough situation to be in for sure.  If you haven't already done so you might want to visit our sister site Out of the FOG. It has some great info and support with respect to parenting as many there are dealing with a PD ex or spouse and custody of children.

And here of course is somewhere we all get what the lived experience of CPTSD is so hopefully you'll find the info and support you need for you