Dealing with life

[Alexandra]

Hello ; I feel something at a loss ,by the abuse ,neglect,and all the energy it took to survive, and cope to deal with the " adult world", the things that are just life, and of course those extra stressful events as well, while I am a mature responsible adult , I feel ,as if I am a child trying to deal with the adult world, there are these two sides to me, my inner child loves to hide, and has no desire to be part of the adult word ,it feels overwhelming to her, I comfort my , inner child by watching a children's program called " Franklin The Turtle", it takes me back to an age when I was safe ,and  cared for ,doing this does help me, the sense of safety feels reassuring ,in dealing with the word, I wonder if others have this sort of experience, Thank you

[Calico77]

Hey
I do something similar.....I have certain programmes/films that I have watched over and over again when I feel really stressed. I know exactly what happens, there are no surprises and I can absolutely guarantee a happy ending. I used to have a book I read in the same way. The familiarity is soothing and makes me feel safer and it distracts me.

It sounds like you are doing a lovely job of looking after your inner child, just the name 'Franklin the Turtle' sounds very sweet and reassuring.....

[Alexandra]

Hello Calico77; Oh yes, I also have movies I watch over and over ,as well, as favorite books,I reread , they do reassures me ,they take me to a place where I feel safe , where the world feels stable , where life makes sense , it is good that you are taking care of your inner child well, it is nice to know that I am not alone in doing this . With your name ,May I ask ,are you a cat lover?

[zen_racer]

Hello Alexandra.  I do similar, though for me I think it's just a comfort thing of watching the same TV shows or movies.  I don't think anything from when I was a kid would make me feel safe.  That's the time frame when I was least safe, at least as far as my family goes.  ... I would've never considered this without this thread, but I wonder if that's why my parents and brother treating me like a child triggers me so badly.

I've gone through periods where I've watched the same TV series over and over until it wasn't available on a streaming service anymore.  I'm finding I come here or listen to music much more than TV anymore though.

***** Editing to add

Alexandra, thank you so much for this post.  After thinking about it a little while longer, I'm pretty certain that realization about how I get triggered by my family is accurate.  This is going to help me so much understanding that.  Sorry for going off topic a little bit.