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[soulfulsara]

Hello everyone!

This is my first time and first post on this forum. I am in the process of healing after going no contact with my family for the past 6 months. Didn't even know I been scapegoated and suffering from C-PTSD until recently. I am experiencing a lot of emotions since discovering this. Relief but a lot of grief aswell of the years wasted living in agony and the loss of family. I am angry aswell with a higher power whatever you wanna call it "God" or the universe for never giving me a break. I've worked so hard on myself for the past 10 years but I still can't make a romantic relationship last more then a few months. Been attracted to mostly narcissistic and emotionally neglectful men in the past. Even though I no longer find this men attractive and can spot them miles away the thought of being in a healthy relationship is so triggering for me. I no longer trust anyone and as soon as I meet someone new I get paranoid that their kindness is just an act.

Thanks for reading 🙏

[NarcKiddo]

Hello, and welcome. I'm glad you found us. The issues you describe are familiar to many of us. I wish you well on your healing journey.

[Kizzie]

Hello and a warm welcome to OOTS SoulfulSara  You've basically just learned about having CPTSD and one thing we all have to come to terms with is that we have difficulty with relationships for a very understandable reason. It's just really hard to trust after what we've been through.  It takes time to undo or relearn that but you're here so you're already working on it - bravo!