New to OOTS

[She]

Hi everyone. I'm new and this is my first time on here. I've been struggling with Cptsd for years now could even be quite possible it's been most of my life and I've only recently been able to put this diagnosis to it myself and also a clinical psychologist diagnosis is cptsd. now I need all the help I can get for the symptoms of cptsd as it's such a struggle every single day for me 😔

[Armee]

Hi welcome, She.

Understanding what you are dealing with is a very helpful starting point, and recognizing it's been a long time - likely your whole life - is very powerful. There are a lot of ups and downs on this path. You'll find a lot of wisdom on this site and support as you navigate healing. It's not a quick fix but you can feel so much better. It takes a lot of time though. For me, I started therapy at 40. It's been 7 years. I still have a lot of symptoms but 98% of the time I feel really really good and stable and at peace. Before I started therapy and healing it was maybe 0.5% of the time. Before though I didn't recognize how bad I felt, because like you and many others here, it had been my whole life like this so it felt like normal. Once you start to experience feeling different...really really pay attention to what that feels like. At first maybe it's literally only two minutes a day that you have that feeling, but that is going to grow over time.

And then there's the roller coaster. At some point you'll feel ecstatic and like you've figured this CPTSD thing out and are good to go. And then comes another trigger out of the blue and you feel worse than ever. You slide way back. This is normal. But you'll work through that set back and take another leap forward and you will be a little bit further ahead of when you slid backward. That is going to be a pattern. It'll sometimes feel like no progress is being made, but it is happening. Most of us find healing isn't 100% complete. We might always have symptoms of CPTSD but that doesn't mean we can't feel better most of the time. For whatever brought you here. I am sorry for what you've been through, but I'm glad you and all the other new members are here and have found a source of support and information. 

[Kizzie]

Hi She, I moved your post to the Intro area as it didn't quite fit in the other member's thread. Welcome to OOTS, I'm glad you found us and I'm sure you'll find being here helpful in your recovery given we all suffer from CPTSD and are trying to recover.

 

[Blueberry]

Hi She, welcome to the forum 

[Hope67]

Welcome She 

[NarcKiddo]

Hello, and welcome. I'm sure you will find a lot of support here.