I feel like nobody understands me or wants to listen, yet I know I am not alone

[Realsantibarreto]

I feel like nobody understands me, yet I know I am not alone

Hello I know this is a lot but I have gone through a Purgatory of a life. My mom is a manipulative narcissist and/or psychopath and I know it. I have Asperger's Syndrome, which I am so grateful to have found effective treatments for (i.e. Sulforaphane, Probiotics, Digestive Enzymes, Vitamin D, and TDCS) but only up until now have I had access to them.
Due to my Asperger's, I have suffered great bullying throughout my life. Having been unable to connect with people has been an enormous emotional burden I had to carry my entire life. I have basically no friends, no money, and no job. Everyone in my life either misunderstands me or refuses to listen to me. As a result I have Complex PTSD and Depression.
I dropped out of college and have no intentions of coming back. And my mom is completely shaming me for dropping out even though I have a good reason for it. Instead of trying to understand me, my father and grandmother who live at home with me continue to shame me into "studying" and do not completely understand the gravity of my situation; the fact that I have immense trauma that I have to heal from and that healing from them will connect me to God's purpose for me He has for my life, which is far more important than any degree, title, or earthly recognition.
I am trapped in a cage in my parents' home and I am constantly shamed and ridiculed for no valid reason. I am trying my best to preserve my physical health by exercising and eating healthy, and I know just how important one's health is to one's happiness, fulfillment and well-being. My parents and grandmother give no credit or recognition to my own personal goals: only the goals they see fit for me. Everyone wants to shove me in a box where I know I do not belong. As a creative person I know where I should belong.
All this is not for complaining though. I have experienced countless coincidences, patterns (some involving my life, some involving famous people) that point to the existence of God who has a plan for my life. My life and its suffering proves as evidence for Heaven, Purgatory, and *. These coincidences and patterns intensified over the last few months as I found myself in the darkest moments I have ever experienced in my life. I found the brightest light in the darkest dark.
Some of these patterns are found in pop music. These patterns are seen in Taylor Swift, Kanye West, SZA, Drake and 21 Savage, Harry Styles, and countless others. I am happy to explain exactly the coincidences that I saw, in hopes of perhaps deepening my own belief that they happened as well as informing you about them.
God has a purpose for me that is so great that it can somehow justify all the suffering that happened in my life. My pain, however deep, has a greater purpose.
I know from my experience that if everyone removes everything they are addicted to, they will eventually reach their God-given purpose.
The New Covenant Jesus taught about is written in everyone's hearts. This means that one's purpose is found after doing the healing work. The effort one has from freeing himself from his addictions and vices will pay off big time: in this life and in the next.

[Not Alone]

Welcome to OOTS. I am sorry for the pain that you have experienced and continue to endure.

[Armee]

Hi, welcome.

I dropped out of college after my second year. I didn't even know it at the time but it was due to massive trauma. I moved back home and worked before starting community college courses 6 months later. My mom referred to me as "my little * up" for doing that. The college I left would have left me in debt and in fact no longer even exists as a college. I graduated from a good university with an impressive science degree and top honors. I knew when I left the first college that I was being very very smart. It didn't make my mom's comments less painful, but just keep trusting in yourself and the higher powers you believe in. If you believe you have made the right decision, then you have. Period.