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[WhatsNext]

Hello everyone.

As my user name suggests I'm looking for whats next on my healing journey.  Was a late baby scoop era adoptee, closed like most were back then, weird family dynamic in the adoptive which I carried forward into a marriage with a toxic spouse, she never was diagnosed but behavior wise was bpd with some co-morbidities.  She's long gone. She died this year.  Nah, I don't grieve that.  I have a lot of relief. 

I honestly do not know if I have cptsd or ptsd or I mean the adaptations I did as a child was to get through.  The childhood wasn't all bad, wasn't all good either.  and the marriage started alright and gradually got worse over time.  So I wonder about that as well. 

thanks for having me