I’m ruining my husbands life

[Stussy7]

Does anyone else suffer from guilt/shame/self hatred because of how our disease affects our spouse?
It is so hard for him to cope with all my issues. He often breaks down in tears due to all the stress, especially if he accidentally triggers me.
He used to be a happy guy, but after years of marriage to me, he's always struggling to cope. On one occasion he blew up and yelled at me "stop ruining my life!"
Those words still haunt me to this day.

[Kizzie]

Yes, I've also worried and felt guilty about what my trauma has done and does to my H and S.

(Note: response edited 24 Feb.)

[Stussy7]

I don't need marriage advice. I just wanted to know if anyone else suffers with the guilt/shame.