Thank you all for your responses. It helps me feel more real, seen and heard
I'm at a grieving stage in my recovery and had a good cry today, it felt really good, or as good as getting out grief can be. Getting all that bad stuff from the past out. It helped get rid of some pain too, both emotional and physical. I don't need to look at myself with suppressed hatred like my family does.
Marta1234, my brother was also one of my major abusive figures growing up. As they say, "it's just the way older brothers are," but what he did cut deeper than I ever thought even when I thought I was "over" it all. I don't think brothers should be excused anymore for how they treat siblings.
My brother was also more popular than I in school. I found a newspaper in these things that was supposed to show my athletic accomplishments, but they mixed up my name with his, probably because I was totally invisible. His name was there instead of mine. That was rather triggering ...
Thank you for the hugs martha1234 and Hope, right back at you
I'm at a grieving stage in my recovery and had a good cry today, it felt really good, or as good as getting out grief can be. Getting all that bad stuff from the past out. It helped get rid of some pain too, both emotional and physical. I don't need to look at myself with suppressed hatred like my family does.
Marta1234, my brother was also one of my major abusive figures growing up. As they say, "it's just the way older brothers are," but what he did cut deeper than I ever thought even when I thought I was "over" it all. I don't think brothers should be excused anymore for how they treat siblings.
My brother was also more popular than I in school. I found a newspaper in these things that was supposed to show my athletic accomplishments, but they mixed up my name with his, probably because I was totally invisible. His name was there instead of mine. That was rather triggering ...
Thank you for the hugs martha1234 and Hope, right back at you