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Woodsgnome,

Praying for peace and a restful night for you. It is awful. To me, it feels like the smallest noise goes through me like a knife.

One thing that helps me when I tap into my shame over mistakes/faux pas is to try and remember that everyone has cringe worthy moments and absolutely no one should feel superior when it comes to mistakes or faux pas.

True. Good to remember that. Part of being human.

San, sorry it's so incredibly hard right now. Sending you care. 

Tomorrow morning three of my friends are coming to my therapy session for me (and therapist) to disclose that I have DID. I am really shaky inside. I have shared some details of my abuse with them. Sharing about DID is a different kind of vulnerability.

 

Maybe if we had grown up in healthy families a good response would come naturally, but we (those of us on this site) haven't, so no not obvious. Glad you brought it up.

Snowdrop,
I'm glad that you posted. You do belong here. As Blueberry mentioned, anything can be a trigger, so you did not do anything wrong by using a certain word. Your care for others comes through clearly in your posts and responses. Glad you are getting a teddy to bring comfort.

Great that you were able to talk to yourself in a matter-of-fact, caring, gentle manner. That is a really big deal. Also that you not only weren't derailed by your dream, but asserted yourself when the dream continued. 

Just my opinion but I don't think you need to explain anything to him, but could just tell him you'd rather he not bring it up any more.

Totally agree.

Just want you to know that I read your letter. I feel compassion for you and your pain as a child and your pain now and conflicting feelings and thoughts about telling your mom.

Complex,
Welcome.  I hope that as you read what others have written, and post at your comfort level, that you will feel affirmed and validated in what you are feeling and experiencing.

Those two words "depressed" and "drunk" say an awful lot. Hope you get good rest tonight.

San, you give a lot to those of us on this site. It is okay if you need to step away from responding to others for a bit. I have been in that place where I am barely hanging on and have nothing to give. Sending you loads of love and compassion.  I know this is not the same as IRL, but I just re-read your post and the word "collapsed" jumped out at me. I pictured you on the floor and me covering you with a soft blanket and putting a soft stuffed animal in your arms.

I hope when you get the new glasses your vision is better. I know that has been troubling you for quite awhile.  for going to the optician and letting them know you were having trouble seeing.

MoonBeam: Throwing a floatation device to you to make keeping your head above water a little easier.