Oh gosh this sounds so awful. I think she definitely should have told you -it was deceitful.
So invalidating too that she would brush over what you felt by saying your mother sounds like she loved you. That was not how you felt. Full stop. There are obviously reasons as to why you felt that way.
It sounds good that you have stopped seeing her and that you have put the anger where it belongs- with her and her practice, not finding fault in yourself. Remember though that not all therapists are the same. There are lovely, understanding and experienced people out there when/ if you feel ready to try again- there are even some i have heard of who specialise in helping people who have had bad experiences in therapy.
I'm sorry its feeling so hard right now, maybe you need to give yourself some time to grieve what has happened and your loss of trust- i think it would be totally normal and natural to feel this way after going through that.
Sending good wishes
So invalidating too that she would brush over what you felt by saying your mother sounds like she loved you. That was not how you felt. Full stop. There are obviously reasons as to why you felt that way.
It sounds good that you have stopped seeing her and that you have put the anger where it belongs- with her and her practice, not finding fault in yourself. Remember though that not all therapists are the same. There are lovely, understanding and experienced people out there when/ if you feel ready to try again- there are even some i have heard of who specialise in helping people who have had bad experiences in therapy.
I'm sorry its feeling so hard right now, maybe you need to give yourself some time to grieve what has happened and your loss of trust- i think it would be totally normal and natural to feel this way after going through that.
Sending good wishes