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Welcome to the site. I'm glad you're here. This is a great resource to have. I've been a member here for less than a month, but have already learned a lot about myself from reading how others are coping with their trauma and through receiving valuable feedback.
My message to you would be: Don't beat yourself up for forgiving too early or anything else. The good thing you've done is realize now how much you're still hurting from the damage done to you as a child. In my opinion, emotional abandonment and shame are the most painful parts of abuse, no matter how that's forced onto you. It sounds like you're recognizing that no form of abuse is trivial. Great job! That's an important hurdle to cross.
Thanks for sharing your feelings with us. It takes courage to do that and to reach out for help. I wish you the best on your journey of healing. You"ll find a lot assisstance here, as well as love and understanding.
Luke
Welcome to the site. I'm glad you're here. This is a great resource to have. I've been a member here for less than a month, but have already learned a lot about myself from reading how others are coping with their trauma and through receiving valuable feedback.
My message to you would be: Don't beat yourself up for forgiving too early or anything else. The good thing you've done is realize now how much you're still hurting from the damage done to you as a child. In my opinion, emotional abandonment and shame are the most painful parts of abuse, no matter how that's forced onto you. It sounds like you're recognizing that no form of abuse is trivial. Great job! That's an important hurdle to cross.
Thanks for sharing your feelings with us. It takes courage to do that and to reach out for help. I wish you the best on your journey of healing. You"ll find a lot assisstance here, as well as love and understanding.
Luke