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HI Sceal,
I hope that your day is going ok.  I know you've got a lot on today - long working hours, and I wanted you to know I was thinking of you.   
Hope 

  to you SanMagic, hope you're ok. 
Hope 

So for now the focus is on discovery and uncovering what I've buried for so long.

to you Three Roses, and wishing you the best for your focus on discovering and uncovering things that have been buried for so long - I know you pace yourself sensibly - and I wanted to say I'm alongside you - if that is helpful    I feel like I am also trying to do that same thing - uncover things that are buried - and seeing what I dissociated from. 



Hope 

One thing is for sure:  If I can release stress that I have carried for many years, I will find more joy and can more easily reinvent myself.  Looking back, I can have a sense of gratitude for having moved through so much pain and appreciate my grit and tenacity.  I did the best I could, and now I have knowledge to do differently.

Hi Jdog,

I find what you wrote here very inspiring - meaningful - and I just wanted to send you a hug     
Hope 

HI Elpha,
Glad that your M's visit was ok, and that your trip went well.  Great that you enjoyed seeing Kelly Clarkson perform - sounds really good.
Good luck with your interview - I know it's a while away yet, but it's great that you have it!   
Hope 

Hi WideSargassoSea,
I am impressed that you got up early to try to get the shots of the Sea - and it's good that you learned some more techniques that way - I wish I could have seen your photos - as I think nature photos are wonderful. 

You listened to your gut instinct perhaps regarding the therapist - and the time clashes etc.  Choices can be really hard - I also find that.  I hope you don't mind my commenting - and I wanted to send you a supportive and safe hug 
Hope 

Dear Andy,
I am glad you're back, and sending you a big hug 

Cheering you on 

Wishing you the best.

Hope 

Hi Deep Blue,
Just popping by to send you a gentle hug    I am sorry to hear your son was sick last week - I hope he is feeling a bit better this week.  I also hope that you are doing ok - I know you're trying to get healthy, and so I wish you the best with that.   
Hope 

This evening I picked up a large sheet of paper that's been lying on a pile in the corner for a year - my attempt to write a list of Goals about this time last year. I gave up on it last January though. This evening I wrote all sorts of goals and in-between steps to help me reach those goals and have taped it to the wall. Some blockage has just become unblocked

I may not complete all the goals and allowing myself this helps me not feel pressure. But it also really helps me to have a list like this on the wall.

Hi Blueberry - I think this is really great. 

I'd also like to send you some hugs - if that's ok   
Hope 

Dear Sceal, Thank you so much - I think that it might be because I'm older - and was used to there not being any technology when I was younger - that I cope with breaks from it now.  I'm not sure.  But I think it helps me a lot to take a break now and then - and so I do it - and find that I am calmer as a result.  I appreciate that you think it is a strength - I hadn't thought of it that way - thank you.     I'm glad to be back here - and missed everyone, even though I wasn't away all that long.  It felt like a longer time!

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Journal Entry on 9th February 2019

Now that the weekend is here and I have some time ahead of me that I can focus on things I'd like to do, somehow I am feeling a bit lost as to what to do and how to spend my time.  I have lots of housework stuff I could do, and there are also some things I've been putting off doing - that I could do.  But I don't feel like doing any of those things - and I'm experiencing that hollow kind of hopeless feeling inside - so I'm wondering which parts of me are communicating that.  I'm wondering what that part/parts need - and how I can hope to respond. 

I think I need to write more about my inner thoughts and feelings but there are resistant parts of me at the moment who aren't feeling comfortable with me doing that.  But I intend to overcome that - and hopefully write more when I can - so that's my hope - and I know it will help me to do so.

Hope 

Hi Wattlebird,
I think it's great that you've been able to do some paintings about your parts, and that it's helped you to understand yourself a bit better.     Your realization that you can improve the quality of your work by putting your emotions into it - that's really a positive realisation.   
Hope 

Hi BeHea1thy - Thank you so much for everything you wrote here - and I am glad you're part of this forum - thank you 

Hi Wattlebird - I appreciate what you said, and thank you 

Hi Three Roses - I always appreciate your hugs - thank you so much 

Hi Jdog - Thanks so much - I appreciate what you said.   

Hi Andyman - So lovely to return here to find such lovey big hugs from you 


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Journal Entry on 8th February 2019

I have had a break from technology - outside work-time that is, and it was really beneficial to me - but I missed being here in this forum, and it's good to be back.  I missed everyone here - but thought of you in my mind - which was helpful in many ways.

I am hoping to get back to some reading on the Dissociation book - hopefully will have a look at the next chapter over the weekend. 

Hope 

Hi Libby,
Glad you're feeling a bit better atm - sending you a hug and I hope your wrist mends very soon.
Hope 

Hi - just taking a few days off from technology (except tomorrow when I am working) but hoping to have a long weekend away from technology - and will be reading nice books and magazines and doing dot to dots and maybe a couple of day trips with my partner - so it's all nice things.
Hope 

Hi again Blues_cruise - I will have a look out for the GoodReads website you mentioned.  Thank you.   
Hi DandelionCrown - Thanks very much for your reply - and suggestions.  I will try to get hold of the "How Lovely the Ruins" book you mentioned - as I do like poetry.  I think I saw the film called 'A Dog's Purpose' and that did make me cry - so I can imagine the book would be similar.  Thank you so much for all your suggestions, and I am very happy to have so many recommendations to look at - I have got some time this weekend, and I am going to try to chill out and relax and read some calming and enjoyable things.  That's my plan.
Hope