I'm new here, but the EF description has already had a big impact on how I feel about the well of emotions that seem to have no source. I know when I have an EF. Usually. It's an emotional reaction way out of line with what's actually happening.
Two simple examples. Possible TRIGGER warning below.
If I drop a box of screws on the floor of the workshop, where the only damage done is the time is takes to pick them up, I fly into a rage. I experience self-loathing, I call myself ugly names, and I want to hurt myself. I don't cut anymore, but I definitely want to. Sometimes I do still dig my nails into my palms to make it hurt. It takes me hours to pull out of this cycle, and I'm moody for days.
I like having short hair. I love the way it feels, but also it's a symbol, to me, of my ability to be free and make my own decisions. But whenever I get a haircut, I always find myself sobbing in the bathroom. This is not a normal reaction to a haircut that makes me feel better about myself (once I stop crying).
Two simple examples. Possible TRIGGER warning below.
If I drop a box of screws on the floor of the workshop, where the only damage done is the time is takes to pick them up, I fly into a rage. I experience self-loathing, I call myself ugly names, and I want to hurt myself. I don't cut anymore, but I definitely want to. Sometimes I do still dig my nails into my palms to make it hurt. It takes me hours to pull out of this cycle, and I'm moody for days.
I like having short hair. I love the way it feels, but also it's a symbol, to me, of my ability to be free and make my own decisions. But whenever I get a haircut, I always find myself sobbing in the bathroom. This is not a normal reaction to a haircut that makes me feel better about myself (once I stop crying).