arpy1,
I'm so sorry that you're going through this. Looking at your posts is so heatbreaking because I know how terrifying the deep-level FB's can be. I'm so glad that you got some relief from reading Pete's book. If I find the reason for what's happening to me, I too feel that relief. I just wish I could always remember this stuff because when I enter a similar EF a few days/weeks later it's like I can't remember the possible reason why, even though I've read through most of the book countless times. I suppose it's that hijacking of the amygdala.
Have you been able to accept to a large degree then? I find that no matter how many times I encourage myself to accept, I invariably end up resisting again. I'm wondering if there's some magic button I should be hitting to 'accept'. Did you find that crying helped reduce the intensity of your FB? Great if it did.
I too am hugely triggered by anything to do with mental health. I was actually referred to the mental health team by my GP just last week. I received a letter today confirming my appointment. I was the one who asked for it though. But I remember a few months ago during an appointment he told me that I was mentallly ill and it tumbled me into a huge EF myself, so I know what you're going through.
As to whether you should go ahead with this, I'm not sure. You definitely shouldn't make a decision until you're in a better emotional state. People in bad emotional states make bad decisions. So wait and think about it. The problem is that this is obviously a triggering mental process for you, so even thinking about it is likely to spiral you into further EF's. With that in mind I think you should ask for things to be put on hold and come back to it in a few moths and try again.
I'm so sorry that you're going through this. Looking at your posts is so heatbreaking because I know how terrifying the deep-level FB's can be. I'm so glad that you got some relief from reading Pete's book. If I find the reason for what's happening to me, I too feel that relief. I just wish I could always remember this stuff because when I enter a similar EF a few days/weeks later it's like I can't remember the possible reason why, even though I've read through most of the book countless times. I suppose it's that hijacking of the amygdala.
Have you been able to accept to a large degree then? I find that no matter how many times I encourage myself to accept, I invariably end up resisting again. I'm wondering if there's some magic button I should be hitting to 'accept'. Did you find that crying helped reduce the intensity of your FB? Great if it did.
I too am hugely triggered by anything to do with mental health. I was actually referred to the mental health team by my GP just last week. I received a letter today confirming my appointment. I was the one who asked for it though. But I remember a few months ago during an appointment he told me that I was mentallly ill and it tumbled me into a huge EF myself, so I know what you're going through.
As to whether you should go ahead with this, I'm not sure. You definitely shouldn't make a decision until you're in a better emotional state. People in bad emotional states make bad decisions. So wait and think about it. The problem is that this is obviously a triggering mental process for you, so even thinking about it is likely to spiral you into further EF's. With that in mind I think you should ask for things to be put on hold and come back to it in a few moths and try again.