I'm working to get a better knowledge of what my emotional flashbacks are like. Once I know that, I can recognize them more easily (I hope). One thing I'm trying to find out is, what do they feel like physically, both during an EF and afterwards. Also, what changes in behaviour are triggered? I'm looking for things that could maybe function as clear signals that I'm flashing back.
So how about comparing notes? Maybe we can gather enough data so each of us gets a better idea of what EFs tend to feel like. An EF roadmap, kind of.
One thing I noticed, EFs dehydrate me. I'm often really really thirsty for a few days, to the point where I'm drinking up to 3 to 5 litres of water per day.
During a flashback, I have a strong urge to physically hide, to be less present, less noticeably physically. So I've got a huge scarf I'm wearing, as a kind of portable nest. Or if several people choose seats in a room, I'm picking one that's in a corner and close to the door, or in a position where I can see all the entry points. I'm sitting hunched, a little on the edge of my seat - you know, the typical way women have of sitting in a way that saves room, in situations where men (and very relaxed women) would sprawl and lean back and stretch out their legs.
Also, I tend to feel peckish for comfort food, often a particular food.
Then there's feeling small and insignificant and boring.
So how about you?
So how about comparing notes? Maybe we can gather enough data so each of us gets a better idea of what EFs tend to feel like. An EF roadmap, kind of.
One thing I noticed, EFs dehydrate me. I'm often really really thirsty for a few days, to the point where I'm drinking up to 3 to 5 litres of water per day.
During a flashback, I have a strong urge to physically hide, to be less present, less noticeably physically. So I've got a huge scarf I'm wearing, as a kind of portable nest. Or if several people choose seats in a room, I'm picking one that's in a corner and close to the door, or in a position where I can see all the entry points. I'm sitting hunched, a little on the edge of my seat - you know, the typical way women have of sitting in a way that saves room, in situations where men (and very relaxed women) would sprawl and lean back and stretch out their legs.
Also, I tend to feel peckish for comfort food, often a particular food.
Then there's feeling small and insignificant and boring.
So how about you?