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Compounding the insurance industry problem is the fact that many psychiatrists want to make a name for themselves by inventing new personality disorders for inclusion in the DSM that are really just symptoms of cPTSD, and the DSM make nearly a billion dollars for the APA with every edition released.

I've used a handful of SSRIs including citalopram (Celexa) in the past. The side effects can cause more problems for those with cPTSD than the main effect helps, and tolerance builds to the main effect after a few years. I've also tried counteracting the side effects with stuff like Modafinil, cyproheptadine, etc. to no avail. Ritalin or any other type of speed is the last thing you want to do given that cPTSD sufferers have autonomic regulation problems to begin with.
"brain fog, slowed thinking, concentration and memory problems" caused by SSRIs will confound any issues you may be having with dissociation. SSRIs as a group of meds developed by BigPharma 30 years ago are now obsolete as their true mechanism of action has nothing to do with serotonin but rather a very dirty way to increase hippocampus volume via BDNF (brain derived neurotrophic factor). Until the new generation of neurotrophic meds comes online, I'd focus on non-SSRI anti-deps like reversible MAOIs (no dietary restrictions) or even some of the lower side effect tricyclics like Tianeptine, as well as off label anti-convulsants (i.e. Lyrica) for autonomic regulation.

A basic question to ask your psychiatrist is whether or not they've heard of and understand the Polyvagal Theory (Stephan Porges). If not, move on. Shows they haven't bothered to stay current in trauma related neuroscience, and have no business prescribing meds for cPTSD.

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...causing a subsequent increase in hippocampus volume. The problem with BDNF is that it is a relatively weak neurotrophic agent, and the problem with increasing systemic serotonin are horrid gastrointestinal side effects given that 90% of your serotonin receptors are in your gut (not to mention sexual dysfunction, increases in anxiety, etc). The problem with suppressing dopamine with Zyprexa is that dopamine is responsible for many critical life processes including voluntary muscle movement. Zyprexa ultimately destroys dopamine neurons in the striatonigral pathway and the process is additive starting with the first dose.  This leads to uncontrollable repetitive movements similar to those seen in parkinsons disease. In other words,  Olanzapine (Zyprexa) is poison. BigPharma promoted the so-called 2nd generation anti-psychotics as free of these side effects which has been shown to be a lie.  Prozac had some value as a partial-response anti-depressant 30 years ago, but it is now obsolete. Neither of these are appropriate medications for cPTSD, and I question the competency of your prescribing psychiatrist. S/he is clearly not a trauma-informed practitioner.
You are better off focussing on meds that help regulate your autonomic nervous system (off-label anti-convulsants) where necessary and avoiding meds like the above that suppress feeling emotions and thus suppress your ability to learn to regulate emotions (which is true recovery from cPTSD).

Yes. Olanzapine (Zyprexa) is a "so-called" 2nd generation anti-psychotic, and fluoxetine (Prozac) is a serotonin re-uptake inhibitor. Zyprexa works to inhibit irrational thought processes in schizophrenics  by suppressing dopamine levels in the brain. Prozac was once thought to relieve (melancholic) depression by raising serotonin levels in the brain. The serotonin hypothesis has been shown to be nothing more than a correlation and red herring promoted by BigPharma as advances in neuroscience and drug development have cast the hypothesis aside in favor of drugs that target either hippocampus enlargement or neural region integration. Prozac has been shown to cause an increase in BDNF (brain derived neurotrophic factor)

Understand that it is in BIG PHARMA's interest in profit motive to keep us dependent on the 'latest and greatest' anti-psychotic/depressant that partially masks symptoms. I say "partially" because if symptoms are eliminated completely, then there'd be no market for the "next generation" multi-billion dollar "miracle" drug.  BIG PHARMA not only has no interest in developing medications to cure the root cause, they actively and clandestinely attack areas of research that do show promise of entirely eliminating symptoms and need for BIG PHARMA meds such as neurofeedback, TMS and psychedelic assisted therapy.

I have a very angry two year old in my head. I've recently had some amazing success using a combination of psychedelic (medical cannabis), intensive vagus nerve stimulation, and mindfulness to prep a self-therapy session where I visualized holding the 2 year old version of me. While stroking his head, I gave him permission to cry for as long as he wanted. During this time my body was doubled over in some sort of intense release of grief and trauma over two recent existential stressors. Since then, I've had a couple additional sessions where I was able to laugh with my 2 year old over some previously traumatizing situations that no longer held power over me. I'm hoping to be able to do this in my therapist's office at some point.