Like Creative23 below, I started out in OOTF. This might be more the forum I need, and I appreciate the guidance from the OTOF moderator. My nom de plume here is Alliematt.
I'm not sure if I have C-PTSD. I do believe I've been in situations that are conducive to it. I was bullied as a child, from first to twelfth grade, and although some teachers and my parents did try to help at times, the bullying never stopped.
In college, I got involved with a cult. That sentence is very hard for me to write. The church I was involved with was an offshoot of a more mainstream denomination. I learned a lot of good things there, but left believing that I just couldn't measure up to God's expectations. When I graduated from college, I went to a church that had been part of the "offshoot group" but that was deliberately trying to get away from the unhealthy teachings . . . and they wound up going in the opposite direction, to the point where you could believe almost what you wanted to. I finally told my husband, we need to get out.
We're in a decent church now, but I am having a lot of trouble getting past the stuff that happened there.
At present, I'm dealing with a lot of stresssful circumstances.
(This emoticon sums it up.) I have several chronic health conditions. I'm trying to pay back student loans from a failed attempt at school. My teenager has autism, and although he's a good kid and pretty high-functioning, I can only take so much of his obsessions with certain TV programs. My mother has also developed health problems--mostly memory and cognition--and tomorrow's my birthday and I don't expect to hear from her. She lives in another state and I don't get to see her very often.
Yesterday and the day before I took my son to scheduled appointments, one to a naturopath, the other to the dentist (regular cleaning). I was so tense yesterday that I laid down for two hours, and then couldn't get to sleep until 1 a.m., and only after taking melatonin. I work from home part-time, have an assignment that's due Monday that's about a quarter of the way done, my house is a mess, and tomorrow, I sing on our church's praise group. (This is something I do periodically.) And I am fed up with certain
I'm in counseling right now. I've been in and out since I was in my 20's, and I'm now in my mid-50's. Sometimes I feel weak and ashamed because I feel so needy.
I told a friend of mine in high school that I was afraid I was going to become mentally ill. Well, I do have a diagnosis of depression for which I take meds, and I believe I have a form of OCD known as pure-O, where I have the obsessive thoughts without the compulsive actions.
You all look like you have a good board here. Thanks for providing it.
I'm not sure if I have C-PTSD. I do believe I've been in situations that are conducive to it. I was bullied as a child, from first to twelfth grade, and although some teachers and my parents did try to help at times, the bullying never stopped.
In college, I got involved with a cult. That sentence is very hard for me to write. The church I was involved with was an offshoot of a more mainstream denomination. I learned a lot of good things there, but left believing that I just couldn't measure up to God's expectations. When I graduated from college, I went to a church that had been part of the "offshoot group" but that was deliberately trying to get away from the unhealthy teachings . . . and they wound up going in the opposite direction, to the point where you could believe almost what you wanted to. I finally told my husband, we need to get out.
We're in a decent church now, but I am having a lot of trouble getting past the stuff that happened there.
At present, I'm dealing with a lot of stresssful circumstances.
(This emoticon sums it up.) I have several chronic health conditions. I'm trying to pay back student loans from a failed attempt at school. My teenager has autism, and although he's a good kid and pretty high-functioning, I can only take so much of his obsessions with certain TV programs. My mother has also developed health problems--mostly memory and cognition--and tomorrow's my birthday and I don't expect to hear from her. She lives in another state and I don't get to see her very often. Yesterday and the day before I took my son to scheduled appointments, one to a naturopath, the other to the dentist (regular cleaning). I was so tense yesterday that I laid down for two hours, and then couldn't get to sleep until 1 a.m., and only after taking melatonin. I work from home part-time, have an assignment that's due Monday that's about a quarter of the way done, my house is a mess, and tomorrow, I sing on our church's praise group. (This is something I do periodically.) And I am fed up with certain
I'm in counseling right now. I've been in and out since I was in my 20's, and I'm now in my mid-50's. Sometimes I feel weak and ashamed because I feel so needy.
I told a friend of mine in high school that I was afraid I was going to become mentally ill. Well, I do have a diagnosis of depression for which I take meds, and I believe I have a form of OCD known as pure-O, where I have the obsessive thoughts without the compulsive actions.
You all look like you have a good board here. Thanks for providing it.