radical, so glad you took the chance and wrote about what you're going through. i think too many times we've been told that when we focus on ourselves, on what we want or need, we've been told that we're being selfish. i've changed that to self-care. i know i wasn't allowed to be selfish, to have anything for me, and i had to share everything i had, which included my knowledge, my time, my energy - everything! but, i know now that sharing my own pain, my own experience, or, conversely, keeping my time, energy, knowledge for myself is self-ish, as in self-caring.
you took a leap of faith, and i applaud you for it. and, while you want to shut it down, you said you're going to push through. good for you. as i say to my dear friend who is also going through this crap, hang tough, baby! i'm hanging right beside you!
here's a story i heard that i've found helpful during these times. it's called 'the lion or the roar'. it goes like this: in the wild, lions hunt in packs. the male goes to one side, the female goes to the other. as a herd of animals begins coming toward them, the male, who has the biggest, most fearsome voice, begins roaring. the animals become scared of this noise, and run away from it. well, unfortunately, they run in the direction of the female, who is the true hunter and killer. they run away from the noise which sounds dangerous directly into the real danger.
i've used this story many times when deciding what to do in my life. between the choices i have, which is the lion, and which is the roar? which is the real danger, and which is just a big noise? you have chosen, by talking about yourself, airing your issues, seeking help and support, to stay away from the real danger of not speaking up. you have walked toward the noise, which can't hurt you, but, ultimately, can help you. kudos to you.
you took a leap of faith, and i applaud you for it. and, while you want to shut it down, you said you're going to push through. good for you. as i say to my dear friend who is also going through this crap, hang tough, baby! i'm hanging right beside you!
here's a story i heard that i've found helpful during these times. it's called 'the lion or the roar'. it goes like this: in the wild, lions hunt in packs. the male goes to one side, the female goes to the other. as a herd of animals begins coming toward them, the male, who has the biggest, most fearsome voice, begins roaring. the animals become scared of this noise, and run away from it. well, unfortunately, they run in the direction of the female, who is the true hunter and killer. they run away from the noise which sounds dangerous directly into the real danger.
i've used this story many times when deciding what to do in my life. between the choices i have, which is the lion, and which is the roar? which is the real danger, and which is just a big noise? you have chosen, by talking about yourself, airing your issues, seeking help and support, to stay away from the real danger of not speaking up. you have walked toward the noise, which can't hurt you, but, ultimately, can help you. kudos to you.