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thank you so much papa coco !!     today is 15 days,  went to the gym and trying to eat.  I still get depressed and feel isolated,  not sure what i can do about that right now.

I didn't start theater stuff until later in life.  I really enjoy it,  you get to be someone else.  I like to do comedies.  it is such a good feeling making people laugh. 

hi and welcome 

thank you NarcKiddo,  we are doing the mousetrap by Agatha Christie,   i have been in several shows at the theater,   i really enjoy it.   

thank you PC !
  Today is day 10 without a drink.   it feels awkward to count the days.   I feel like i can have a few drinks,   i just don't want to use alcohol to escape anymore.  I went for a bicycle ride yesterday,   first tie ina while.   it felt nice.  going to the gym later today.   
i am going to be in a show at the local theater,  i really enjoy that,   the cast is always supportive and feels like family

 

hello 

 

thank you PC !    I am trying to get motivated today.  I really want to go to the gym.   I am starting to calm down a little,   i took my wife to the grocery store this morning and it was so busy,  it really stresses me out. 

I appreciate you both for all the help and support,    i have been doing good,  until about an hour ago,   is started feeling depresed and lonely.    i am at home now,   and the dogs help a lot.   i am trying to fight it off.   i really need to find some local friends for support.

welcome   

feeling good today,  worked this morning and went to they gym.   day 5 without a drink.   I almost don't want to count the days anymore,  i just want to not overdrink and have to deal with all the complications and suicidal thoughts.   I am not sleeping as much as i would like,  but i noticed i have not been getting nightmares as frequent as i did when i drank alot.   

thank you armee and NK,   

i am trying to stay positive,  but i don't know how much more i can take.   i feel like i have pushed everyone away.   i feel isolated and alone,   it is so hard watching people enjoy time with friends and family,   i just want to feel normal.   i am loosing hope

thank you hope !
  I don't really know what to do today,   i feel like i can not trust the people i work with,  and they are the only friends i have.   i have been spending most of my time alone,  i am trying not to get depressed.   i might go to the gym today,  i need to get out of the house