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Does anyone else find they are constantly altering between anxiety and depression? As I get older it seems to happen quicker but I am not sure

I find it exhausting, e.g. on Tuesday I had anxiety which made it difficult to do anything, I didn't punish myself I tried to find some ways to cope and found it by re-reading a book I bought a couple of years ago. Yesterday was great but now today I woke up and I'm just really low energy and can't think straight (it may be linked to waking up in the middle of the night after a trauma related dream) but I don't know. I know I can just go for a run and I'll feel better because it isn't really bad but I find the constant nature difficult to manage

Can anybody relate to this?

Good Luck! I hope it goes well for you

Thank you, your words mean a lot. I have been in therapy on and off for 8 years. I stopped going in the middle of last year because it was expensive and I was doing well at the time - I cycle through 'everything is going to be great' to 'everything is terrible' but less so now and I am more aware of it

We never really focused on the day to day stuff as I found ways to cope, I have a good group of friends and I have had income during that time working from home. I got into that work as a way to hide really - sorry if I am being vague but I would be too easily identifiable if someone read this and not all of my friends know.  Anyway, that was the best option available to me at the time, but now I can try and make healthier choices and find stable income - I agree it would be a good time to revisit therapy to help me through that process.

I know I am making big progress, I just feel stuck because the next step feels like a big leap. I don't fully understand what the problem is - honestly, I have been rejected a lot in my life and I am scared of it but once it actually happens usually I feel relief because I expect it to happen. I think trying to break it down into smaller chunks and trying to make small steps like practicing video interviews will be helpful to me.

Hi, I am in my early thirties and have never had a proper job. I experienced frequent abuse when I was younger for a long period of time, and I discovered Pete Walkers book last year and I found I related to most things he wrote about in some way.  I somehow got through school (I guess I'm okay if I am doing something for someone) but when I got to university and I didn't magically turn into a different person I struggled and dropped out because I had no motivation.

I slowly have learned to look after myself in healthier ways, and in the last year I have completed 3 courses, one of which allows me to become self-employed and another that was in customer service. But now that I have to either find work I am terrified, I have a very poor self image - if someone offered me a job I'm confident I could function within it, but actively looking for work is scary to me to the point where I have never done it, I was struggling financially last year and got an interview for a supermarket but I couldn't do the video interview.

Does anyone have any advice?