Don't be ashamed! You're traumatized, alcoholism is hereditary, it's not your fault. Go to AA, they help tremendously.
I self-medicated with alcohol for over 40 years. Now I take prescribed medication, vitamins and minerals, stay away from gluten and dairy (both of which can cause extreme fogginess/anxiety/physical pain). I recently started smoking marijuana, so I do still self-medicate, but only because my disorder became unbearable and I knew alcohol would kill me.
You can do this!
Best of luck to you.
I self-medicated with alcohol for over 40 years. Now I take prescribed medication, vitamins and minerals, stay away from gluten and dairy (both of which can cause extreme fogginess/anxiety/physical pain). I recently started smoking marijuana, so I do still self-medicate, but only because my disorder became unbearable and I knew alcohol would kill me.
You can do this!
Best of luck to you.