this is my first post, and my CPTSD critic is filling my mind with self doubt and criticism as i try to write. Aggh!
its been 4 months since i've gone No Contact with my Malignant, overt Narc Father. {Retired military (think Tommy Lee Jones in The Fugitive..."Hen house, out house, dog house..." Thats my dad, except add in all the rollercoaster abuse you suffer from Narcs. i am a sensitive person, an artist. i am the only one of my siblings who moved back to our home town, so i suffer the Scapegoat and the Golden child roller coaster alone. } i have been love bombed, and attacked, and love bombed, and attacked, via phone calls for the past few months. the flying monkeys are circling, but i am grateful i have my 3 older siblings on my side. (we banded together several years ago, after years of hating each other bc he used to pit us against each other to vie for his "love" and attention. )
i am almost 40 and i have finally gained boundaries and some beginning of a sense of self. it's been 7 months since i started this journey towards freedom and joy. Reparenting helps, and i'm working hard to focus on my mental journey through this muck.
i am a better mother to my 2 children since i started this path. i flashback less, i am mindful, and i am grieving through the years of abuse i suffered and am allowing myself to feel anger and pain.
if you have advice on the journey of going no contact with a parent, please share.
its been 4 months since i've gone No Contact with my Malignant, overt Narc Father. {Retired military (think Tommy Lee Jones in The Fugitive..."Hen house, out house, dog house..." Thats my dad, except add in all the rollercoaster abuse you suffer from Narcs. i am a sensitive person, an artist. i am the only one of my siblings who moved back to our home town, so i suffer the Scapegoat and the Golden child roller coaster alone. } i have been love bombed, and attacked, and love bombed, and attacked, via phone calls for the past few months. the flying monkeys are circling, but i am grateful i have my 3 older siblings on my side. (we banded together several years ago, after years of hating each other bc he used to pit us against each other to vie for his "love" and attention. )
i am almost 40 and i have finally gained boundaries and some beginning of a sense of self. it's been 7 months since i started this journey towards freedom and joy. Reparenting helps, and i'm working hard to focus on my mental journey through this muck.
i am a better mother to my 2 children since i started this path. i flashback less, i am mindful, and i am grieving through the years of abuse i suffered and am allowing myself to feel anger and pain.
if you have advice on the journey of going no contact with a parent, please share.