I grew up in a verbally abusive home. 7 years ago, I left for college and started processing and dealing with everything I went through. Almost 2 years ago, I married my best friend. I am still dealing with my past and I feel so guilty for dragging him through this with me. He is very supportive, but he doesn't understand. He keeps pushing me in ways that bring up my past and it upsets me. When I don't respond or react, he gets upset, really upset without the cussing or the hitting. He yells and screams at me to just do something. It scares me that he'll leave me or worse become like my dad. And, it's that kind of thinking that makes me afraid that our marriage will end. I'm just so tired of feeling guilty and afraid.