Quote from: soulareclipse on April 18, 2017, 01:01:37 AM
Hi All, I'm new here and this is my first post. I have a question regarding childhood vs adulthood onset CPTSD. How do you tell which one applies to you?
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But how can I tell whether the onset was as a child or an adult? It seems kinda obvious here, I guess, but I think the abusive pattern started at such a young age for me, and continued into and throughout adulthood, that I honestly have never known anything different. So how do you know when CPTSD truly started? Is there a point of singularity as a child (childhood onset) or is it a culmination of abuse (varying forms and perps) over the course of years where one particular trauma brings all the past traumas rushing back, like "the straw that broke the camel's back" (adulthood onset)?
Hello soulareclipse,
I'm not sure what the other members think about this, as I can only respond from my own experiences, insight and awareness.
Basically, the way I view the difference between whether child-onset or adult-onset C-PTSD is really that point when it all finally fell apart and became too much to cope with on a day-to-day basis in (mostly) non-threatening situations. I may be very wrong on this, so don't take this as gospel.
Whereas PTSD can be pinpointed to a single even with specific flashbacks, triggers, and clearly identifiable causes, CPTSD is so much more complicated. Origins of CPTSD, I understand, often stem from multiple earlier traumas, commonly (not always) in childhood. Where a childhood was reasonably trauma free -despite any neglect or abandonment etc issues- and those multiple complicated traumas occur later in life, that's an easy one to pinpoint as Adult-onset. And similarity, if the majority of traumas occurred in childhood rather than adult life, then that's an easy one to see too.
Yet, CPTSD is rarely a cut-and-dry matter. Our whole lives have been shaped by incidents but it is how we deal, cope, and respond to them that makes some difference. As a kid, teenager, and young adult I was able to shake off my traumas with relatively little impact on my academic, social, or working life. Some really bad stuff had happened but my mind and body was still under my control and functioning great. Then, in my adult life I had a series of really toxic events occur that traumatised me deeper than they should have (in my mind at least). After that, and one last big trauma, my control was gone. My body, mind, subconscious, everything was so deeply damaged I can only compare it to a disability of the soul.
So for me, that point when the main, major trauma that did the most damage to finally need help is the one I personally consider the one to define as whether child- or adult-onset.
I'm not sure if it answered your question, but I hope it helps.
Cheers,
Autumn.