I am not listing this under the 'illegal' section, because I have a medical marijuana card in my state and I believe my experimentation with cannabis is honest and legit. Over the years, I've tried various anti-depressants and anti-anxiety meds.
It wasn't until a few months ago, my therapist recommended CBD. So I tried it and had good results. I proceeded to get my medical card and am now trying various strains of cannabis. Most notably, there is a strain called ACDC which is non-psychoactive (in that it does not produce the 'high' typically associated with high THC content (ACDC had 1 part THC to 20 parts CBD).
In addition, I am trying to use another blend that helps with sleep.
I am only at the beginning of this experiment, but I wonder if anyone can talk to any of these issues:
1) Feeling like I'm doing something 'wrong' even though I am a) Working with my therapist AND looking for honest feedback from my wife AND b) Honestly looking for what is supportive.
2) Looking to balance ease and 'taking a break' with avoidance and checking out.
3) I notice that some fear seems to turn off with cannabis and something primally social seems to wake up in me when I use. It's like a part of me that got shut off from years of abuse gets reactivated in part. I seem to learn something that I can take with me when I am not using.
Any thoughts or honest advise on INTENTIONAL use of pot would be appreciated. I am using a vaporizer and planning on making tinctures so I'm not actually 'smoking.' I just want to stay honest about the whole process but I'm struggling a bit to get over a sense that I shouldn't be feeling good or that I'm doing something wrong (maybe this is misguided...).
It wasn't until a few months ago, my therapist recommended CBD. So I tried it and had good results. I proceeded to get my medical card and am now trying various strains of cannabis. Most notably, there is a strain called ACDC which is non-psychoactive (in that it does not produce the 'high' typically associated with high THC content (ACDC had 1 part THC to 20 parts CBD).
In addition, I am trying to use another blend that helps with sleep.
I am only at the beginning of this experiment, but I wonder if anyone can talk to any of these issues:
1) Feeling like I'm doing something 'wrong' even though I am a) Working with my therapist AND looking for honest feedback from my wife AND b) Honestly looking for what is supportive.
2) Looking to balance ease and 'taking a break' with avoidance and checking out.
3) I notice that some fear seems to turn off with cannabis and something primally social seems to wake up in me when I use. It's like a part of me that got shut off from years of abuse gets reactivated in part. I seem to learn something that I can take with me when I am not using.
Any thoughts or honest advise on INTENTIONAL use of pot would be appreciated. I am using a vaporizer and planning on making tinctures so I'm not actually 'smoking.' I just want to stay honest about the whole process but I'm struggling a bit to get over a sense that I shouldn't be feeling good or that I'm doing something wrong (maybe this is misguided...).