Hello. I just wanted to tell my story and maybe get a few answers.
As the partner ex partner of 15yrs to someone suffering from cptsd I am broken. I truly am. The deep despair I feel is incredible. I don't know how to go on anymore and am now questioning my own mental health. The toll of 15yrs of mistrust, jealously, cheating and lying had left me with no self esteem or confidence what so ever. We just split again and it seems to have no emotional effect on her at all. She has already moved on and doesn't seem to care at all or show any empathy at all. Even though diagnosed as c-ptsd she refuses to get treatment and after pressuring her to do so I am now a Narcissist and manipulator. I have been turned into a monster in her eyes and been accused of all sorts of wierd and wonderful things. Soon we are starting mediation and it seems that I am now the focus of her trauma. Everyday is a struggle with trying to process how she would rather walk away and start over than to get treatment.
Broken and shifting from love to resentment.
As the partner ex partner of 15yrs to someone suffering from cptsd I am broken. I truly am. The deep despair I feel is incredible. I don't know how to go on anymore and am now questioning my own mental health. The toll of 15yrs of mistrust, jealously, cheating and lying had left me with no self esteem or confidence what so ever. We just split again and it seems to have no emotional effect on her at all. She has already moved on and doesn't seem to care at all or show any empathy at all. Even though diagnosed as c-ptsd she refuses to get treatment and after pressuring her to do so I am now a Narcissist and manipulator. I have been turned into a monster in her eyes and been accused of all sorts of wierd and wonderful things. Soon we are starting mediation and it seems that I am now the focus of her trauma. Everyday is a struggle with trying to process how she would rather walk away and start over than to get treatment.
Broken and shifting from love to resentment.