I don't know what to say or think but I'll do my best to explain it.
Today my mother told me I told child/adolescent mental health counselors that a family member had sexually abused me not long after it happened, however I don't recall doing so and there was no follow up even though it would've been reported, am waiting to get a copy of all the notes from that service. So to a degree she knew something happened to me and now she's telling me counseling isn't going to work to fix my issues I just need to push it down and forget about it, it really looks like she's been trying to cover it all up for years and trying to say I'm making it up, if anything did happen it was my fault. This is kind of a rant but I'm really angry and don't know how to deal with this horrible feeling of betrayal.
Today my mother told me I told child/adolescent mental health counselors that a family member had sexually abused me not long after it happened, however I don't recall doing so and there was no follow up even though it would've been reported, am waiting to get a copy of all the notes from that service. So to a degree she knew something happened to me and now she's telling me counseling isn't going to work to fix my issues I just need to push it down and forget about it, it really looks like she's been trying to cover it all up for years and trying to say I'm making it up, if anything did happen it was my fault. This is kind of a rant but I'm really angry and don't know how to deal with this horrible feeling of betrayal.